i don't know how I feel anymore
Lately i've been so disconnected from everything. I just continue you along with no direction. I say I know what I want to do and I know where I want to go to college but I doubt myself every second i think about it. I claim to be straight edge and so i've taken a stand against going to high school parties but thats cut me off from all of my alcoholic friends whom I miss greatly at times. I wish i could get as much pleasure as watching someone drunk stumble around and say things they don't mean but its depressing for me. This post is depressing for me. I'm done.