this needs no subject
i feel as though this post needed to be public.
alot has happened to me in the past week. one crazy week. 3 people dead. 3. in three days.
i went to laredo this weekend to pay my last respect to isaac. it was very sad yet very healing. i needed it. it brought me closer togehter with myself. and it made me realise that i am not invisible to bad things happening to me. isaac was a wonderful man, father, brother, and friend. at the age of only 22.. he accomplished so much. he made a beautiful little girl named crystal. he made wonderful art, he was going to be an art teacher.. yea.. he was a beautiful writer. and just a beautiful man. i mean... he is what every grl wants.. he loved his wife, his daughter, his family, God, and his life. and it was all taken away from him. ya know..i learned alot about him this weekend that i didnt know. and he will be very missed. isaac i will see you again i hope. <33
this weekend i think it made everyone closer. when i got there gabe was there with open arms.. he said he had never missed me as much as he did.. when something like this happens it makes you want to be close to the ones that you love the most (friends family whatever)
it made me think alot about the future.. i mean.. isaac 22.. accomplished so much. he had a beautiful wife and child and was about to be an art teacher.
what have i accomplished? nothing? exactly.
i think i need a religion..i just need faith..i seem to have lost it over the years.. and i think i need it back for my own sake...
i just want to thank all of you that help me get through my battles without you guys i dont know what i would do.
for all of those i have hurt, i am sorry. it happens but we all need to make amends one day. thats all i can say. i am truely sorry for the pain i have caused all of you bc noone deserves any pain.. lifes to short and way to precious to spend it on pissing people off and hurting people.
so yeah
thats all i can say
alot has happened to me in the past week. one crazy week. 3 people dead. 3. in three days.
i went to laredo this weekend to pay my last respect to isaac. it was very sad yet very healing. i needed it. it brought me closer togehter with myself. and it made me realise that i am not invisible to bad things happening to me. isaac was a wonderful man, father, brother, and friend. at the age of only 22.. he accomplished so much. he made a beautiful little girl named crystal. he made wonderful art, he was going to be an art teacher.. yea.. he was a beautiful writer. and just a beautiful man. i mean... he is what every grl wants.. he loved his wife, his daughter, his family, God, and his life. and it was all taken away from him. ya know..i learned alot about him this weekend that i didnt know. and he will be very missed. isaac i will see you again i hope. <33
this weekend i think it made everyone closer. when i got there gabe was there with open arms.. he said he had never missed me as much as he did.. when something like this happens it makes you want to be close to the ones that you love the most (friends family whatever)
it made me think alot about the future.. i mean.. isaac 22.. accomplished so much. he had a beautiful wife and child and was about to be an art teacher.
what have i accomplished? nothing? exactly.
i think i need a religion..i just need faith..i seem to have lost it over the years.. and i think i need it back for my own sake...
i just want to thank all of you that help me get through my battles without you guys i dont know what i would do.
for all of those i have hurt, i am sorry. it happens but we all need to make amends one day. thats all i can say. i am truely sorry for the pain i have caused all of you bc noone deserves any pain.. lifes to short and way to precious to spend it on pissing people off and hurting people.
so yeah
thats all i can say