a praise chorus

[xtccake]

my mind is running, a million miles a minute. i can't get a single thought through. maybe it's just alittle nonesence maybe i'm just crazy, i sware they said this happened to them, just before they dived below. i sware it was some kind of mistake that led me here, this wasn't how it was s'pose to be, or maybe that's just how it seemed. i could've sworen it was a different mission they handed as i walked through the gates, out of the nothing. maybe, maybe it just got misplaced. i thought it said this would be easier, that this wouldn't be this way. i guess i was wrong, looked at it the opposite way, thought it said, hoped it said something it really didn't. i s'pose it was just a mistake.

"...i'm on my feet im on the floor i'm good to go
all i need is just to hear a song i know
i wanna always feel like part of this is mine
i wanna fall in love tonight..."
-jimmy eat world

i hate her so much for ruining this family, i hate her so much for steeling my bestfriend, i hate her so much for being alive, i just hate her so much.

i hate it when he yells at me, i hate how he always makes fun of me, i hate that he's no longer my friend, i hate how he hates us all now, i hate that we use to be friends, i hate that we're related, i hate that he's family, i hate that he doesn't care about anyone... except for her

i hate that she pretends to like me, i hate that my friends are worthy of her friendship and i'm not, i hate how she's not good at hiding the fact that she hates me, i hate that fact that i know, i hate that i'm not important enough for her

i hate being here, i hate this life, this breath i take in every day, i hate waking up, i hate my faults and lack of strengths, i hate not being able to take care of these feelings, i hate living everyday with the same thoughts and never doing anything about it, i hate me and me and me alive....

--"what would you think of me now?"