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ughh i love moulin rouge now sooo much for some reasonnn. itz the bestest movie in the worldd. but the bad thing is since i watched it im so depressed all the time and i rememeber promising myself to never be sad again..damnitt broke another promise to myself..my b-day is in like a few more weeks...thats great that all my friends are excited for my party but the thing iss im not having one. b-e-a-utiful. cuz my mother says she cant afford to entertain friends cuz its so much money to rent a few movies and stuff. whatever im too spoiled as some people say....itz funni how this journal makes me take all my anger out of mee!!! thats good i think. today was crap....seems like chri doesnt even like me anymore....cuz now shes so loved by everyone and shes great in gym i guess im not good enough. i knew the day would come. actually thought it wouldnt be till highschool but i guess not. shes so into everyone else like u know when u have an old toy and then u get a new one then u always play with that one till something happens to the new one then u go back to the old and then u get another new one and play with that.. thats how i feel. maybe itz cuz shes always happy and i get times when im not...but im realli tryin to be like her. to be liked by everyone and to have the most popular guy liking her wow luckkyyyy...she has the greatest life. she just doesnt see it. k im going now got to be depressed.o yeah and one more thing age yeah forget about him.. he never even glances at me...i dont think he even knows i egsist so fuckkkkkkkk that... Buh Bye