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[xtbkidd07]

Well I haven't updated in a little while again. Oh well. Well yesterday during the day I didn't do much but last night I slept over Alissa's house. It was fun. We played the Sims, played with her little brother and sister who are adorable, played on the computer, and watched movies (The Butterfly Effect and The Texas Chainsaw Massacre)...holy shit, they are both wicked freaky, but especially the chainsaw massacre one...I almost cried cuz it was freaking me out so much. lol. But I still think they were good movies but I need to watch the Butterfly Effect again to understand it better. But anyway...I stayed there until 4:00 today. Then when I got home I took a shower and got ready for the wake that I had to go to at 5:30. It was sad. I fucking hate death, I FUCKING HATE it, it scares me to fucking death. Sorry for that random outburst. Ya know what, I'm beginning to think that I might be part of the reason for all of these deaths...because that's three deaths in a little less then two weeks of eachother, and they're all linked to me SOMEHOW (my godmother's brother whom my parents and other people I know were friends with, Kayla, well she isn't closely linked to me since I don't know her or her family...but it effected many people who I know...and then my mom and my godmother's best friend just died). So its freaky...I feel like God or the devil or someone somewhere is trying to send me a sign...which I don't know what it could be and I don't know if its bad or good or not...WOW, I think WAY too much...this could have nothing to do with me, but, I still can't help thinking and wondering about it. I don't know...I'm just a bit scared and confused right now...I don't do good with death...well who does?? I don't know...=/

Well I'm gonna end this cuz I'm just ranting now...and I'm pretty tired and I might go to bed soon. I'll update later. Buhbye.

-Terry

*Whats the point of living if your just going to die??*--Good question, huh?