and i dont want to be there when your coming down...
i wish i didnt feel like he has left me alone.
lately its been so hard to get up and out of bed.
i feel like my purpose has been taken from me.
but were not over...theres just distance...
and its killing me.
the pain from it wont leave my body.
and the worring thoughts wont leave my mind.
...
im happy that craig davy and alan came to visit last night, i really did miss them, and i got to see nichole last night...i really miss her all the time, and its good to have christina and jason around again, and i wish amanda would come home soon from new york...i wish something would change for the better...i wish he would stop feeling so distance because happiness doesnt exsist without him i fear...
oh, what a joke.
lately its been so hard to get up and out of bed.
i feel like my purpose has been taken from me.
but were not over...theres just distance...
and its killing me.
the pain from it wont leave my body.
and the worring thoughts wont leave my mind.
...
im happy that craig davy and alan came to visit last night, i really did miss them, and i got to see nichole last night...i really miss her all the time, and its good to have christina and jason around again, and i wish amanda would come home soon from new york...i wish something would change for the better...i wish he would stop feeling so distance because happiness doesnt exsist without him i fear...
oh, what a joke.