dish washer
last night Paige pretty much slept threw the night! 8pm-4:30am woo hoo! Anyway...our dishwasher broke so Casey's mom is bringing us a new one today...thank fucking god man. I hate washing dishes by hand!!! 12 days I go see my doctor for my 6 week postpartum check up. Ew god am I dreding that.Seriously if you've never been to the gyno or arent a woman let me tell you wooo! So awkward! Atleast it wont be as bad as the 2 week postpartum appointment I had. Omg omg omg. I have nightmares about it still. I was in so much pain from my stiches in that area and the doctor is stickin his fingers all up in it ugggh and he put a finger in my bum! Now I dont know what the point of that was probably to get his jollys but seriously jesus fucking christ if that happens again im gonna need therapy. Speaking of which I didnt see Dr.Noonan the other day they forgot to send me a card telling me when to show up and I didnt have a ride. Ive been soooooooooo depressed latly and really anxious. Renee gave me some xanax and my intentions were to just sell them but insted I kept them since I need them now. I hate depending on drugs to get me threw life.Not like crack or drugs like that but perscriptions. Ever since I was in the 7th grade I've been on all kinds of antidepressants and xanax. So whats the deal with people wanting those damn xanax so bad anyway? People who dont even need them take them.An those are the people I hope go into a coma,have a seizer or get addicted to the point where they die and burn in hell. Ya know why I feel this way? Because everytime I go to the DR they act like Im just looking for drugs to get fucked up. Screw those pill poppers.