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*sigh*. that's my summary of today. i had school till 12:15 (as always) then home then work then home. school was ok i guess. 1st period was the preschool, which is always fun. 2nd we're doing work which sucks and tomorrow is a test :/. dct sucks now. 3rd we finished pirates of the carribean then just talked. after school i went to the bank then home. me and josh watched snl and mad tv. i was sooo comfy laying on his lap and i took a like 2-5 minute nap on him until my dad coughed loudly. then i prepared myself for work. got there at 2:15, clocked on at 2:30. went on break at 3:15 for 45 minutes, and found out that 2 people called out so we had a 4 man crew, 3 people until 5. then mike stayed all night (he worked 7AM-10PM!!) Then Tiffany and Katrina came in making us have 7 people. Tiff and I worked together on our sections (thanks for doing the most!) I got kind've upset about something. only because the people that truly know me understand why i am the way i am and that just because i set standards in my life doesn't make me feel better than everyone. tiff knows that by what i showed her (along with a select other people) i don't like myself. yes, i do feel like i make wiser decisions than other people sometimes but i am far from feeling better than everyone. i try to make friendships and not get anyone upset with me. if i do, i quickly try to fix it. i've never have had anyone not like me because of religious reasons. i respect everyone's culture. obviously if i'm christian, i'm straightedge. i don't smoke, i don't drink and i don't have sex and never has that been a problem until senior year when everyone tells me i'm stupid and i'm missing out on life. not really, i'm just choosing another path. i have loads of friends who are like that. i just hope that certain people could realize that it's not easy being in my shoes and getting criticized everyday for trying to be a good example and to show that things are possible if you put your mind to it. hopefully, i can get to some people. it really hurts me to find out that people can think so low of me. as if i don't already think low of myself. as i told tiff...."One smile holds 1,000 tears" have a good night everyone. xoxo