saturday - er hots, beach , thomas
so, today i went to the barn
then i went to the pier with dana and kyle
and it was really weird.
like...the last time i was there was when slade died.
and...it was creepy kind of cause the first night i met
him the carnival was there
and when we went tonight, the carnival was there
it made me really sad, just thinking about all the time that went by
and how sooner or later all you have left are memories
but memories will fade whether you want them to or now, and i know im slowly
forgetting him, and i dont want to. but i guess everyone will be forgotten.
i saw timmy and jake and cammy and dave [and his stash]
and hubby at ER hots tonight, with dana and kyle.
which made me happy.
i hadnt seen timmy in a long time, it felt good to hug
him again. haha
so, as im sure you know, my brothers in jail again.
dont ask.
and um, he was supposed to come home tonight i guess? and
we have this couch, and it like...folds out into a bed, anwhen i walked into the house
the first room belongs to my dog, leo. and the cushions from the couch were there
and i was thinking "oh, thomas is home" cause that meant the couchbed was out.
and i looked in the room, and then bed was made up so night and
there was a note on it saying "Sweet Dreams, I love you Thomas" and his favorite candy
but he never came home. and it was like...so empty when you walked in
i feel so bad because i know my mom doesnt want him in jail
we worry about him, and its just dissapointing i suppose
because we were looking forward to seeing him
and maybe him having changed a little,
or maybe not, and there was all that hope
and then is was gone. it made me want to cry.
i miss him.
x the end.
then i went to the pier with dana and kyle
and it was really weird.
like...the last time i was there was when slade died.
and...it was creepy kind of cause the first night i met
him the carnival was there
and when we went tonight, the carnival was there
it made me really sad, just thinking about all the time that went by
and how sooner or later all you have left are memories
but memories will fade whether you want them to or now, and i know im slowly
forgetting him, and i dont want to. but i guess everyone will be forgotten.
i saw timmy and jake and cammy and dave [and his stash]
and hubby at ER hots tonight, with dana and kyle.
which made me happy.
i hadnt seen timmy in a long time, it felt good to hug
him again. haha
so, as im sure you know, my brothers in jail again.
dont ask.
and um, he was supposed to come home tonight i guess? and
we have this couch, and it like...folds out into a bed, anwhen i walked into the house
the first room belongs to my dog, leo. and the cushions from the couch were there
and i was thinking "oh, thomas is home" cause that meant the couchbed was out.
and i looked in the room, and then bed was made up so night and
there was a note on it saying "Sweet Dreams, I love you Thomas" and his favorite candy
but he never came home. and it was like...so empty when you walked in
i feel so bad because i know my mom doesnt want him in jail
we worry about him, and its just dissapointing i suppose
because we were looking forward to seeing him
and maybe him having changed a little,
or maybe not, and there was all that hope
and then is was gone. it made me want to cry.
i miss him.
x the end.