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Interesting weekend. It was pretty good considering the past few weeks. Friday night there was all this drama and complications concerning our plan to go to Josie's house, but we did make it there. It was pretty fun until her shower door broke and all this other shit. We all went back to my house afterwards and poor Josie was in lots of trouble in the morning, but her parents still don't know that there was a party there. I was kind of upset that Josie had to take the blame for the shower door but I guess that's the way it goes sometimes. :(
So Saturday after the girls left, I finally got to see Josh. He had to work later so I just spent a few hours over there but that was ok because I had other stuff to do n e ways. Mom and I drove up to Port Orange, went to Taco Bell, and then went to Target to get Trisha a present. I knew I was going to be late for her surprise party, but I would have felt bad going without something to bring her. I only got to stay a few hours tho because I was so worn out and mom wanted me to come home early.
Today I got up and went to church, and then I met Dad at Creekside. That's right...DAD. It was the first time I'd seen him in the flesh since a few weeks after I got out of the hospital back in January. Of course it seems like no time's passed. But he still brings up stupid shit sometimes that stresses me out and makes me upset. I guess it will always be that way though... What I wasn't expecting was to walk into the gym and see his girlfriend there! I've never even met her before and I just thought it was kinda weird havin her there since I hadn't seen him in so long but whatever. She seemed pretty nice. I honestly don't understand how dad gets these nice women sometimes, but I'm glad he's happy. I worked on my serve and a couple other things for about an hour, and now I have bruises all over my hands, but oh well. He let me drive his big new Chevy (my dad hadn't even had his car for a year and of course he gets a new one. He goes thru them like underwear and it's so annoying sometimes. Especially when I was little and he drug me around to car dealerships every 3 months...I could tell you the price of n e new or used vehicle at the age of 5 tho. haha) After that we went to Red Lobster and that was pretty much it. I don't kno what to think about all of it. Everytime something like this happens, and all of a sudden things are drasically different, all these feelings get churned up. It's so hard. I still think about Rosie and Dixie, and the whole iceskating thing. He says that 'when' I come over he will order me a pair offline even though they're so expensive because of the special blade and boot I need and everything. But Idk if mom'll let him because we've already sacrificed stuff to budget for it. And she's afraid he's going to use this stuff to manipulate me...she's a very smart woman. So we'll just see how far all that goes..
I can't wait till I can drive. That way I can go over there whenever I want, and even better...LEAVE whenever I want. No attachments. No "i'm calling mom". ugh. So complicated.
Picture day's tomorrow but so is a volleyball game so I'm gonna be creative and try to wear my shirt I'm getting my picture in under my vball shirt. I can't go all out and be really spirity tho because my mom wants me to get my pic with my hair down so I can't wear my ribbons to school or n e thing. Whatever. We have one Tuesday too so it doesn't matter. God I hate picture day. Idk why. I just think it's a pain in the ass and only the really girly girls care about it..and I guess that kind of annoys me. Wow I feel mean :( so I'm just gonna stop writing. I definetly need some sleep as early as possible tonight.
So Saturday after the girls left, I finally got to see Josh. He had to work later so I just spent a few hours over there but that was ok because I had other stuff to do n e ways. Mom and I drove up to Port Orange, went to Taco Bell, and then went to Target to get Trisha a present. I knew I was going to be late for her surprise party, but I would have felt bad going without something to bring her. I only got to stay a few hours tho because I was so worn out and mom wanted me to come home early.
Today I got up and went to church, and then I met Dad at Creekside. That's right...DAD. It was the first time I'd seen him in the flesh since a few weeks after I got out of the hospital back in January. Of course it seems like no time's passed. But he still brings up stupid shit sometimes that stresses me out and makes me upset. I guess it will always be that way though... What I wasn't expecting was to walk into the gym and see his girlfriend there! I've never even met her before and I just thought it was kinda weird havin her there since I hadn't seen him in so long but whatever. She seemed pretty nice. I honestly don't understand how dad gets these nice women sometimes, but I'm glad he's happy. I worked on my serve and a couple other things for about an hour, and now I have bruises all over my hands, but oh well. He let me drive his big new Chevy (my dad hadn't even had his car for a year and of course he gets a new one. He goes thru them like underwear and it's so annoying sometimes. Especially when I was little and he drug me around to car dealerships every 3 months...I could tell you the price of n e new or used vehicle at the age of 5 tho. haha) After that we went to Red Lobster and that was pretty much it. I don't kno what to think about all of it. Everytime something like this happens, and all of a sudden things are drasically different, all these feelings get churned up. It's so hard. I still think about Rosie and Dixie, and the whole iceskating thing. He says that 'when' I come over he will order me a pair offline even though they're so expensive because of the special blade and boot I need and everything. But Idk if mom'll let him because we've already sacrificed stuff to budget for it. And she's afraid he's going to use this stuff to manipulate me...she's a very smart woman. So we'll just see how far all that goes..
I can't wait till I can drive. That way I can go over there whenever I want, and even better...LEAVE whenever I want. No attachments. No "i'm calling mom". ugh. So complicated.
Picture day's tomorrow but so is a volleyball game so I'm gonna be creative and try to wear my shirt I'm getting my picture in under my vball shirt. I can't go all out and be really spirity tho because my mom wants me to get my pic with my hair down so I can't wear my ribbons to school or n e thing. Whatever. We have one Tuesday too so it doesn't matter. God I hate picture day. Idk why. I just think it's a pain in the ass and only the really girly girls care about it..and I guess that kind of annoys me. Wow I feel mean :( so I'm just gonna stop writing. I definetly need some sleep as early as possible tonight.