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Great. life is just PEACHY. isn't it? oh yes. o ho ho yes. lovely. matt can't decide if he wants to make out or not. it's been demoted to a "possibly". great. that's only MORE crap to add to my wonderful life. steve thinks my hair smells good. fruity. but i KNOW that it's NEVER EVER going to happen between me and him. he only dates the preps and the pretty people. i am not one of those people, despite the fact that i have no braces anymore. i am never going to have a boyfriend. never! it's just never going to happen for me. not even in high school. even though my (chick) friends think i'm pretty and all that jazz, i'm not pretty to my guy friends. wamble said something about me being pretty once, but it was because i was feeling really depressed and i kept asking him if he thought i was pretty and he kept saying yes but i think it was just to make me feel better. because i was REALLY depressed that day. but whatever. my friends seem to be really positive about me gettin a boyfriend and me getting to make out and blah blah blah. glenn and josh aren't taking me to punisher anymore because josh had to go to cali for some reason (don't know why) and so now glenn is going to brandon's and now i can't go to the movies. apparently, brandon can NOT go to the movies with me and glenn. i don't know why. probably because i'm not popular enough for him and glenn doesn't like me like that. he likes kyleigh. whatEVER. and even though josh and madelyn broke up and i though i might have been feeling josh, he likes gabby. obviously. because he acts like it and he is so sexual with her and he's not sexual with me. NOBODY is. because i'm me. gah. and to top it all off, i've been reading this book called "The Boy Next Door" by Meggin Cabot (a "Reading With Ripa" book club pick) and it is AWESOME and they are so sexual. sexual-osity all around me. ack. whatever. i really think i'm not that bad of a person. and i (for some reason) can't get Mr. Jordan Izaak Pundik off of my mind. he is just so HOT. and SEXY. and he oozes punk-rocker-ness. which is BEYOND sexy. and his tattoos and his hair and his face and his mouth and i can't type just thinking about it...(you can't tell because i'm backspacing and fixing it)...and i think i'm in love with that man. too bad he's 25...hum. i can dream. <3