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ugh.
so while thinking a lot this past week.. i realize i am dumb.
I think of how much stupid shit i have done.
I think of how i make out with the whole world.
I think of how paranoid i am...
and I think of much of an IDIOT i am when drinking..
so why do i do it?
I'm not sure. honestly. I hateee the feeling of thinking of all the dumb shit i do.
I hate the feeling of bitching out the whole world.
I hate the feeling of making people mad.
I hate the feeling that i am so straight foward..
so from now on.. okay. at least for a while.
I quit drinking.
Also. i'm so frustrated with myself.
I can't even be in competition anymore because i destroyed my foot.
Its bruised and i couldnt walk on it for a few days.
Its getting better i think.. but everyone keeps telling me i still need to get it x-rayed.
It's okay tho. I'm fine
thats all.
so while thinking a lot this past week.. i realize i am dumb.
I think of how much stupid shit i have done.
I think of how i make out with the whole world.
I think of how paranoid i am...
and I think of much of an IDIOT i am when drinking..
so why do i do it?
I'm not sure. honestly. I hateee the feeling of thinking of all the dumb shit i do.
I hate the feeling of bitching out the whole world.
I hate the feeling of making people mad.
I hate the feeling that i am so straight foward..
so from now on.. okay. at least for a while.
I quit drinking.
Also. i'm so frustrated with myself.
I can't even be in competition anymore because i destroyed my foot.
Its bruised and i couldnt walk on it for a few days.
Its getting better i think.. but everyone keeps telling me i still need to get it x-rayed.
It's okay tho. I'm fine
thats all.