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Damn i just dont know how to feel anymore. Everything i once had just left. The one time i feel i can relate to someone and just have a great time something happens and it ruins. Man i feel so shitty right now like someone just took my heart ripped it out and walked ALL over it. Maybe it is for the best but right now it just hurts soo much. How am i to act? When i see him do i smile and act like nothings wrong? Eventhough inside just seeing his face tears me apart. When i look at his pic on my wall it brings me to tears just knowing at one time i had him and didnt do anything to try and stop him from walking away. When he said he just wanted to be friends it felt like my heart was stabbed it hurt so bad but i tried so hard not to cry and be tough. damn.. I act like nothing is wrong but really nothing is right. Part of me is empty and the only person i want to fill it doesnt want to. damn.. :/