In Hopes to hear you say it one more time...
So you wanna know what I think ...
Alright you all know that that's me ... right? Well thats not me 2 me ... you get it ... I dont understand why it is that I see myself so differently then how others see me ... I mean when I look at myself I dont see the person in the picture? So what does that mean ... Everyone else sees that person? Maybe its just because Ive matured now and I still see myself as a young girl? Or maybe ... its just what mood I am in ...? Like I mean have you ever been in such a great mood and you go and look in the mirror and your just like ... ah this is me I look so cute today blah ... and then your in a horrible bad mood and youll look in the mirror and just think ... Why do I have to look like this? Im really thinking that your mood shows you what you wanan see? I dont know if this is making sense to any of you but bear with me ... A lotta people tell me im beautiful...? Sorry if this seems dumb your welcome to stop at any time ... but anyway I dont see the beauty ... you may all just think oh Sam you know you are so just shut up already ive had enough of this depressive talk ... Im not trying to be 'depressive' Im telling you what I see ... I mean to me ... I really do believe Im pretty ... though I believe everyone is beautiful in their own way ... I dont know but Im getting tired of people always worrying about how they look ... You shouldnt have to do that to get people to like you ... so to leave you with that I just wanna say I am who I am ... if you dont like me ... oh well your loss I dont wanna hear your opinion ... really I dont.
On to a lighter note ... today may havebeen one of the most wonderful days Ive had all summer ... besides the very first day of summer but of course... Lol ... I spent today with my sister ... she rocks so hardcore! ... It was so hot out 105...Yea... I was dying ... I was so hot and I hadnt had a thing to drink all day ... we got the the doctors office for ashley to get something checked and I got a glass of water ... Ice cold water ... well the change of body temp that fast ... ooh ... not good. I got really dizzy and lightheaded and fell to the ground ... Ashley got really mad at me at first because she thought it was something else ... that Im not going to go into I dont want a million people yelling at me ... Anyway what an Ironic place for that to happen ... I was all good though ... we left there and went to Planned Parenthood? Something for Jayce I dont rememember what ... then we went shopping for a bit then we stopped at BK to get some shakes. Yummy
...Anyway then we went to my sisters house for a bit ... I met Jamal... Rickys best friend hes pretty cool I guess ... a bit ... Scary? Then me and Ashley went tanning ... yea guess what ... My ASS got burnt ... thattttttttts right you all heard me ... My butt got burnt ... Owwyyyyy...
Then I came home found out incredible news ... Casey
I Love you Girly!! Congrats
hahaha ... Anyway Im talking to some people so Ill talk to you all later I guess
¤Samantha¤
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Do you have any gay/lesbian friends:Yes, Benito, Nikki, Roxanne, and Kassie, Kassie Benito and Roxanne are Bi though.
Who is your best friend: Adam and Casey ... sorry but they are tied
Who's the one person that knows the most about you: Prolly Casey, or Ashley, or Janelle
Your favorite inside jokes: Oh there are a lot ... prolly Mohawk Sexy ... Sandy, and ... Bears...Lol you wanna know the story ... you ask wanna know more ... ask
Who's your longest known friend: Well Im gonna go with Adam ...
Newest: Probably ... Andrea or maybe Courtney?
Shyest: Hmm I dont know if any of my friends are shy... Maybe?...Kaylie?
Funniest: Ahh Casey by a long shot.
Sweetest: Im gonna go with Mike Moe...Orrr ... Judy maybe even Eric
Closest: Adam or Judy
Weirdest: Hahahaha Casey especially when her and I are together
Smartest:Im gonna go With Ms. Kayla Zinter.
Ditziest: Heh...Jessie
Friends you miss being close to most: Well Nikki for sure ... and Im gonna say Courtney we arent friends anymore which sucks because her and I were so close ... I have no doubt in my mind that im the one who fucked it up though.
Last person you talked to online: Eric
Who do you trust most: Judy
Who listens to your problems: Ashley, Casey, JUDY, Mike, Benito, Nikki almost all my friends actually Chris mostly
Who do you fight most with: Ummm Janelle
Who's the most outgoing: Oh wow ... Umm Bucci
Who's the best singer: Ashley
Who's on your shit-list: I dont really have a shitlist...prolly that kid that talked shit about Judy...Even though I dont know him Ummm James
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend: Ha ... to be totally honest Yes...
Who's your second family: A tie between Ashley and Caseys fam.
Do you always feel understood: Nah...But no one is ever always understood...
Who's the loudest friend: Janelle...Haha
Do you trust others easily: No there are very very few people I trust to be honest prolly maybe 3 people ... Being Judy,Bucci,and Prolly Mike or Eric sorry everyone I really cant trust easily I still love you all but that doesnt mean I can trust you ...
Who's house were you at last: Uhhh ... Crap Its been a while im In Oklahoma right now ... sooo ... Im gonna go with ... Ashleys.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: To be all truthful and stuff ... Erics...
Do your friends know you: For the most part
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake: Of Course not ... Just kinda depends on who you fall in love with
Turn-ons: Pelvic Indents, Pretty Eyes
Turn-offs:Show Offy ... Clingy...Druggies or Drinkers ... I dont know im not very easily impressed
Do you prefer knowing someone before ...dating them or going out: Yea I do
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Ahhh Lordy ... Yes. the one time I decided to look past my retarded shallowness<~Not something Im proud of ... But kinda cant help it
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking: I dont know ask them
What's the last present someone gave you: OOOH!! Lol ... The thinger Judy Made meh!! I heart it
Are you in love: I do believe so.
Who was the last person...
That haunted you: Ummm...I dont believe Ive ever been haunted?
You wanted to kill: Actually Ive never had an urge to kill someone...
That turned you on: Ha umm ... Eric? Most likely.
You went shopping with: My Sister
That broke your heart: Eric
To disapoint you: Eric
To ask you out: Pat
To make you cry: Eric
To brighten up your day: Judy
That you thought about: Eric
You saw a movie with: Kayla, Casey, Amanda, Ashley
You talked to on the phone: Ashley
You talked to through IM: Now Judddy
You saw: My brother lol ...
You lost: If you mean lost to death my second cousin who did suicide...
Right at this moment...
Are you going out: Nope
Will it be with your significant other:Nope
Or some randome person: Not going no where
What are you wearing right now: shorts and a tshirt
Body part you're touching right now: Ummm my foots touching my leg?
What are you worried about right now: Lots of things... Dont wanna say on here
What book are you reading: Ummm I do believe I finished the book I was reading ... gotta find a new one ...
What's on your mousepad? Split Rock Lighthouse
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Confused. Happy. Shocked. Scared. Tired.
Are you bored: yes
Are you tired: yes
Are you talking to anyone online: Judy
Are you talking to anyone on the phone: Cant say I am...
Are you ...lonely or content: Ummm Im pretty content.
Are you listening to music: YEP! Mario ... lol
Please dont get offended if your not mentioned im really tired