its my birthday
before work today i came across this picture from my 7th birthday party. it made me sad to think that i'm not a teenager anymore. i remember not being able to get over the fact that my age included two digits when i turned 10. i miss those days when birthdays were exciting because you got to pass out cupcakes in school and be the center of attention for the day. and i remember using the excuse "but its my birthday!!" to get my way for like a whole week when i was little. lately birthdays don't mean that much to me, i don't want to get older. i'd have to say the most memorable birthday from the last few years happened two years ago. a certain person kept me on the phone until midnight so he could be the first to say happy birthday to me. *sigh* ohh how i miss those days. they were definitely some of best so far. i wonder if on my 18th birthday i thought about how life would be when i was 20? probably not though, at that time in my life i was so happy the thought of things changing was just not something i wanted to occupy my time with. it scares me to think about where i'll be 5 or 10 years from now. that seems so far away. i just hope i'm happy. lately i've realized that things are looking up for me, i complain quite a lot but when it comes down to it, i'm so lucky for everything thats happened thus far and i've got a lot to look forward to still, life can only get better from this point on.