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so tomorrow at 1 I register for classes...
I will most likely get screwed out of everything I deserve and worked for like honors theatre and chamber choir because school starts in too little time to come up with anything to audition, I don't know if I have to, it says teacher recommendation from prerequisites...whatever- I'm probably fucked.
My partially awesome but mostly shitty summer is coming to an end in like- 9 days.
No time for anything worth anything I'm sure.
At least when school starts I can have time to work and less time to angst and think about how I'd rather have my life be.
Diet going well- so at least that's alright.
I hate how angsty I've become I'm just really fucking lonely. I especially feel as if I'm burdening the people I'm keeping in touch with because it's just an annoyance to talk to me because I'm far away?
I really miss people though.
I miss having friends. I miss knowing what my year was going to be like- fuck I miss knowing my junior year was going to own because now I'm pretty positive that it won't. Can't find a fucking job, maybe when I turn 16 I'll have more luck? My mom doesn't want me to work during the school year anyway.
That is all of my annoyingness.
I will not bug you further.
Ta-ta.
<3Jess
::Edit::
I had some bitchy stuff but I will be leaving my cynical rambling because, it's my fucking journal- the rest of the stupid shit was taken out.
I will most likely get screwed out of everything I deserve and worked for like honors theatre and chamber choir because school starts in too little time to come up with anything to audition, I don't know if I have to, it says teacher recommendation from prerequisites...whatever- I'm probably fucked.
My partially awesome but mostly shitty summer is coming to an end in like- 9 days.
No time for anything worth anything I'm sure.
At least when school starts I can have time to work and less time to angst and think about how I'd rather have my life be.
Diet going well- so at least that's alright.
I hate how angsty I've become I'm just really fucking lonely. I especially feel as if I'm burdening the people I'm keeping in touch with because it's just an annoyance to talk to me because I'm far away?
I really miss people though.
I miss having friends. I miss knowing what my year was going to be like- fuck I miss knowing my junior year was going to own because now I'm pretty positive that it won't. Can't find a fucking job, maybe when I turn 16 I'll have more luck? My mom doesn't want me to work during the school year anyway.
That is all of my annoyingness.
I will not bug you further.
Ta-ta.
<3Jess
::Edit::
I had some bitchy stuff but I will be leaving my cynical rambling because, it's my fucking journal- the rest of the stupid shit was taken out.