and he finally said he loved me and I could find the word's to answer him...
What would you say if someone called you for the first time in like forever and told you they loved you for the first time ever? Well, I am just sitting here shaking and crying ..that's all I can do I mean I couldn't think of anything to say..I don't even think there was anything to say! My real Dad told me he wanted to see me, that he had me a present, and that he went through rehab to straighten up for me and that now he wants to try and forget the past and me get to know the real him. And I want to get to know the real him...but I can NEVER forget the past, I will NEVER forget that loaded gun to my head..but I want to try to get to know him..I mean if he's trying for me I can try for him. I am supposed to go out to lunch with him and shopping also ..he is thinking of buying me a car! But if he thinks that his gifts will fix everything they won't!! I figure the lunch will be supervised ..Mom will probably come! I don't know I am just so confused..I don't know what to feel..Happy that he is trying for me, sad or mad cuz it took this long for him to ..I just wish someone would tell me how I am supposed to feel, but they can't. I know I am rambling on so I guess I will go..my eyes are blurry from the tears anywaz!
-XoXo- Jessie Lynn
-XoXo- Jessie Lynn