why mee!!!
have you ever had that feeling when u think uve had the worst week of your life?... well im sure it was just cake compared to last week for mee... monday wasnt soo bad but it all started on tuesday when sum ASSHOLE!!!! rammed into my car on the expressway and pushed me into another car... by the time i could realize it there was a four car pile up on the expressway and all i wanted to do was go home... thank god for police mens especially hot ones cuz that gave me something to stare at other than my totaled car which i just got 5 months ago....god knows how long its gonna be before i can get it back from the body shopp... thank god it was that guys fault cuz i wouldnt be able to pay for all that dammage... then wednesday comes along besides the fact that i had to miss work and take money from my paycheck i had a doctors appointment... not just any doctor but the gyno... i was acctually going to get results from some test i took because supposedly i had an infection so i was planning to just get the results and get a prescription or something... i knew somethingwas wrong as soon as the doctor walked in he had this weird look on his face... and then he said it... "i have some bad news for you... the results from your byopsy came back positive with CANCER... i couldnt even breathe... how can it be possible im only 20 yrs old... supposedly its not internat yet its in my cervix they can remove it witrhout any kemo if it hasnt spread internally... i have an appointment for a catscan on thursday to make sure it hasnt spread... hopefully it hasnt and i can just get it removed and have it never come back... once you hear news like this it changes your prespective on life completely ive started thinking of all the stupid shit ive done in my life, all the fun things, my family, friends and my boyfriend hes sooo cute when i told him he sat with me and we cried together for a while he has been soo supportive and says that he will be there for me and hell never leave me and shit... what ever i dont even want to think about that if it has spread i dont want him to be with me thinking i can die at any time id rather him move on and live his life... he kinda got offended when i told him that but its true what is he supposed to do when im gone?...ahh enough negativity im gonna be fine...i just dont know why so many things have happened to me ... my life hasnt been so great who can i have pissed off so much to deserve this?...i dunno what ever there are so many things in my mind right now... i wish i could take a vacation and go away for a while ... but lifes a bitch huh?... BLAHH!!!!!