Someday Ill manage to move on...
So first off, i never check my LJ.. maybe i should more.. I'm a mess i guess. I turning into this corpse, where I dont feel, I dont care, and i have no will to live. Its quite a strange feeling not having ambitions or anything like that. I think im going to build up a big wall and lock everyone out. Cept Family. I'm done with relationships, Its not fair. Until i manage to let go, and stop wanting maggie back. I know its sooo dumb.. but I still really hurt and confused why something soo great just ended. And when i truely try to tell her how i feel, i choke... If things were meant to be.. im sure things will tie together. But where does one decide how long he waits... and when it turns into udder confusion and total dismay of ones emotions.. Ugh.. I really dont know.. tonight i go to sleep.. and i wish not to awake...just let me fade away..