Now it's the same, same old song, but with a different meaning since you've been gone...
ok well yesterday every1 came over and we ate, played hide and seek in the dark, watched texas chainsaw massacre... very all of it was very very fun lol and i was glad every1 could come lol
ok last nite i was thinkin... every1 asks me if i would ever wanna find my real parents... i started actually thinkin about it and decided i never would... the reason is cause if i actually found em, i would wanna meet em... and i just cant do that cause im scared about how it would turn out... i mean not every reason for giving up ur baby is good... like mayb they gave me up cause they didnt want me or sumthin like that... not tryin to b negative or ne thing... and i had this picture perfect reunion in my head and then i was thinkin, wut if it wasnt like that... i dont think id b able to stand it if it wasnt like that... like i dont wanna show up outta nowhere if like they were hoping to give me away and just never c me again... yeah so thats my reason...
ok on to 2day... very very fun day once again... went over ronnies last minute and then hung out and then went to neshaminy to get her a new belt clip... and then we went back to her house and they skateboarded in the street lol and i had lost my right contact in the hallmark at neshaminy so i just sat there cause i couldnt see lol ne ways after that we just hung out in her house... felt accomplished cause we got jens present tho!! yey!!
i found out about alyssas surgury... sum dumbfuck screwed up on her and she had an allergic reaction to the anethesia... omg i felt horrible reading the email... im gonna send her flowers... rsd is really horrible and no one should ever wish it on ne one... she missed her senior prom cause of all of the pain... and its non-curable as of now and meds dont help at all so shes always in constant burning pain all over... and i remember her going thru one stage where no one could even touch like her arm cause the nerves were so sensitive... it was horrible... and she missed like over a yr and a half of skool... ok im gonna stop now... lets just say shes had a horrible like 3 or 4 yrs with this... and she only found out wut she had like 4 months ago... its really sad...
ne ways im gonna go now cause this is really really long... bye bye
ok last nite i was thinkin... every1 asks me if i would ever wanna find my real parents... i started actually thinkin about it and decided i never would... the reason is cause if i actually found em, i would wanna meet em... and i just cant do that cause im scared about how it would turn out... i mean not every reason for giving up ur baby is good... like mayb they gave me up cause they didnt want me or sumthin like that... not tryin to b negative or ne thing... and i had this picture perfect reunion in my head and then i was thinkin, wut if it wasnt like that... i dont think id b able to stand it if it wasnt like that... like i dont wanna show up outta nowhere if like they were hoping to give me away and just never c me again... yeah so thats my reason...
ok on to 2day... very very fun day once again... went over ronnies last minute and then hung out and then went to neshaminy to get her a new belt clip... and then we went back to her house and they skateboarded in the street lol and i had lost my right contact in the hallmark at neshaminy so i just sat there cause i couldnt see lol ne ways after that we just hung out in her house... felt accomplished cause we got jens present tho!! yey!!
i found out about alyssas surgury... sum dumbfuck screwed up on her and she had an allergic reaction to the anethesia... omg i felt horrible reading the email... im gonna send her flowers... rsd is really horrible and no one should ever wish it on ne one... she missed her senior prom cause of all of the pain... and its non-curable as of now and meds dont help at all so shes always in constant burning pain all over... and i remember her going thru one stage where no one could even touch like her arm cause the nerves were so sensitive... it was horrible... and she missed like over a yr and a half of skool... ok im gonna stop now... lets just say shes had a horrible like 3 or 4 yrs with this... and she only found out wut she had like 4 months ago... its really sad...
ne ways im gonna go now cause this is really really long... bye bye