subjectless.
Im bored and i wanted to write something, anything. Inside, Ive been confused..and its to the point where i start thinking about everything. And its also to the point where i just wanna say "fxck it all" and do whatevere i feel like. Which isn't good because i'd totally fxck up my life, i know i would. Everything i believe in, and everything i stand for seem not to matter to me right now. I don't know what im feeling exactly, i don't know what im doing, i don't know what im thinking, and i don't know what to do. It's easy for me to hide all of this, because people dont see what isnt right infront of their faces. But pretty much it's eating me inside to out. I'm slowly slipping. I mean, look at all of this i've been doing lately..drinking, smoking, lying, sneeking out. I dont get it. I dont wanna say, "well, this is the new me." Because as much funn as ive been having, it doesnt make me complete, as much as i thought it did. Let me tell ya, Drugs and Alcohol can make you feel super great, and you can fall in love with it so easy. I just want to live life, a good life, with no feelings, just happiness. Oh, in what world would that be!?