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Jul 25, 2006 18:38

I dont know what pain is worse. 
Not being with him
or
Not being able to be with him. 
I want to just end this and be with him.
In perfect harmony. Forever.
But.
Could i leave Her? 
The woman that gave birth to me;
gave me life. Gave me Love.
I miss him so much, but. 
I might just end up missing her as much. 
Either way. I can't be with both.
I'm stuck in the middle. 
A very gray inbetween.
One day. 
I'll be with him. 
And he'll show me all the love he never showed me. 
And i'll give him the love i've kept hidden in my heart.
The love he's never seen or felt. 
The love i was always too scared to express.
The love that could mean the world to him. 
But, for now. That love.
Is. Powerless. 
It can't bring him back.
I wish i could have stopped him. 
Made him WANT to get better.
Made him WANT to be with me.
But. I didn't. 
I failed.

What I would do to just have one last word to him. 
One Last Hug.
One Last Kiss.
One Last "I love you." 
One Last Look.
One Last Breath. 
One Last Goodbye. 
But no. 
I got NOTHING. 
and now. 
I have NOTHING.

one day. we will be together. No matter what anyone says.
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