who knows?
went to Vegas, saw my sister<3
I.. have a new perspective on life now. At age 15, i realized what life is all about. Greed, Lies, Money, Sex, Drugs, Alcohol, Propaganda, Racism, Fame, Success, Needs. Everyone, wants to fit in, and be liked. Everyone, care about what people think about then, and it's sad. Now, I admit, sometimes..I do care what certain people think of me, but its only people i hardly see, and dont know at all.Why is that? Because i want them to remember me as a certain way, so next time, if i ever see them again, and see im different, they'll be like, 'hey, you've changed' and its always funny to say, 'oh gee, really? i hardly noticed.' I saw, American History X. That movie, chnaged a lot in how i see things. I know its just a damn movie, and whatever, but it got me thinking. Racism!? FUCK RACISM. I hate people who are racist, to any race. Just because you're one race, doesnt make you different than anyone else. No, skin color, ethnicity, or background history makes you any different. What makes black people different than white people? Skin color? So they're tanner than us, WHO FUCKING CARES!? So, one person of a certain race pisses you off, HATE THE PERSON NOT THE DAM RACE FUCK HEADS. White people piss me off, but you dont see me fucking talking shit about them do ya? (okay, ive been over that fuck you im not white bullshit, so get over it). Yeah, to anyone who says anything about white pride, black pride, asian pride, mexican pride, i have one thing to say to all of you. FUCK YOU, AND YOUR NARROW MINDS. Dont bring that shit around me, i cant stand it. Dont call me a Nazi, just becuase im German doesnt mean im a Nazi, i mean, HELLO I LIVE IN 2005. Dont call me a cracker, because im a HUMAN. Idiots. But, this isnt about racism completely. Drugs, Alcohol, Sex.. you honestly never really know what goes on with those things unless you've experienced it first hand. Me, no i havent, but i know enough to say it serves no purpose, except sex, we do need to reproduce. AH-HA. Once in a while, special occasions, or just sometimes you need to escape..sure Drugs and Alcohol will help ya, but its not a cure. But hey, what do i know right? I mean its not like i have a father who is a drug addict, with no love for his own children, except for maybe his needles and bongs, and its not like i live with people who get drunk off their ass every night. Ha, no way. Me? have that family? ..Somethings, you dont really see right away, maybe not even at all. Took me 15 years to realize it all, my eyes are open. No, i still havent seen everything, and there are some things i dont see or notice, but i will. You ALL will. One day, like today or tomorrow or heck, maybe 15 more years from now, you'll look back on everything and go, "wow, all that was really going on, and i had no clue." And one day, your eyes will open and you'll see one thing, one life changing thing, and thats just the beginning. Don't judge me, because you really, dont know me. You might know who i am, or what i look like or how i talk or what school i go to, but you dont know anything ABOUT me. So dont act like you do.
People say, Love is Blind. I say, Love is blind, only to those who are not in love. MEANING : The love two people feel towards each other is blind to everyone else in the whole wide world, but im sure you could have gotten that on your own.
People say, The first cut is the deepest. I say, The first cut is the deepest, but the second and third ones hurt just as bad. Im sure you all can interpret that on your own.
People say, Live life to the fullest. I say, Live YOUR life to the fullest, not the life people want you to live.
Another thing that really ticks me off, is how girls look at magazines and say, "I wanna look like that" "I wanna be that skinny and beautiful" Well ladies, sorry to burst that bubble of yours but, the reason they look like that is becuase thats how you look at them.(Also because technology now a days is incredible). When i look at people like Paris Hilton, or Britney Spears or Jessica Simpson, I see.. Ugly people, who put on a act of being Pretty(make up, again, technology now a days is incredible) and skinny. They probably STARVE themselves, who wants that? It bothers me when girls idolize these women. fkjafhkjsdh. fuckingfuckheads.
my last words.
i hate her, i love him, and i have an addiction.
You all should know who she is. He, is the love of my life, you all probably know who it is, but actually, only he knows who he is. And my addiction.. Is life. Im addicted to living MY life, how I want it.
-sincerely, Danielle Marie Torp.