Are you gonna live your life standing in the back looking around?
So, I'm down to 103. I weighed myself when I got home. I'm glad though, because now I feel like I'm accomplishing something along with being motivated to eat as little dinner as possible. I don't know what we're having, but tomorrow is pizza night, so the skate park would REALLY benefit me. I might even be able to fast for 24 hours tomorrow if we go to the skate park. So now that I'm down to 103, I'm happy. It's my lowest weight, so if I was under 103, I'd feel REALLY accomplished. Only 8 more pounds to go. Yeah, it doesn't seem like a huge difference because it's 2 pounds, but it's a REALLY BIG difference to me. It's like the difference between being 105 and 107. I'd hell of a lot rather be 105.
Everything seems to be going really nicely. Jason and I are doing well, thank GOD. I'm still really paranoid but I'm trying to ignore it/get it to go away. I know he loves me, that's all that matters. I just need to know he loves me. If we broke up, it would probably hurt, but I'd get over it just like I did the last time. I really am starting to think I don't NEED a boyfriend, like I felt I did a little while ago. I don't need a boyfriend. I am independent, and I can do things on my own. That's definately now I'm thinking now.
I'm waiting for my progress report to come. I'm doing good in everything except for math, but I don't know about Media Arts or photography. She never gives us averages or anything like that. It makes me mad. I think I owe her homework though because she has this magazine thing that we have to do every week and I always either forget or by the time I think to do it we don't have photography again that week. We only had 2 days of photography this week. It's hard to keep up with those classes. I'm going to try harder in all my classes, actually. I'm not happy with my bio average at all, an 87 isn't even close to perfect. I don't know what to do, I'll just have to study harder, that's all.
Adam mentioned something like "Ryan's going to hate you, soon." First of all, I really don't care. I don't care who hates me or whatever...and I don't really know Ryan, so it's not valuable to have his respect. If he hated me it would be kind of like...okay. Like I wouldn't really care. Maybe I'm just being a bitch again. I seem to be a bitch a lot lately.
Off to make some green tea...not much to write about today.
-Tina
Everything seems to be going really nicely. Jason and I are doing well, thank GOD. I'm still really paranoid but I'm trying to ignore it/get it to go away. I know he loves me, that's all that matters. I just need to know he loves me. If we broke up, it would probably hurt, but I'd get over it just like I did the last time. I really am starting to think I don't NEED a boyfriend, like I felt I did a little while ago. I don't need a boyfriend. I am independent, and I can do things on my own. That's definately now I'm thinking now.
I'm waiting for my progress report to come. I'm doing good in everything except for math, but I don't know about Media Arts or photography. She never gives us averages or anything like that. It makes me mad. I think I owe her homework though because she has this magazine thing that we have to do every week and I always either forget or by the time I think to do it we don't have photography again that week. We only had 2 days of photography this week. It's hard to keep up with those classes. I'm going to try harder in all my classes, actually. I'm not happy with my bio average at all, an 87 isn't even close to perfect. I don't know what to do, I'll just have to study harder, that's all.
Adam mentioned something like "Ryan's going to hate you, soon." First of all, I really don't care. I don't care who hates me or whatever...and I don't really know Ryan, so it's not valuable to have his respect. If he hated me it would be kind of like...okay. Like I wouldn't really care. Maybe I'm just being a bitch again. I seem to be a bitch a lot lately.
Off to make some green tea...not much to write about today.
-Tina