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wow. i'm completely and idiot. i mean.
i can't think about anything BUT him.
when the phone rings i run to the phone to see if it's him
if it's not him, i walk around disappointed that my mom thinks i'm crazy
if it is him, i sometimes get speechless or just nervous so i talk a lot...
when he comes over, i get quiet.
and when i look at him, my heart speeds up like 54310985094385234321264890126048x's
and i'm gonna fail my finals cuz all i think about is him, so i won't go to college, and i'll be stuck working in a MCDONALDS <- no complaints though... i like their fries and mcflurries and apple pies...
and all that becuase of a phone call. and now that i got a kiss. or two. or three. i'm like. woah. i can't control it anymore. and it's stupid. cuz we're not even seeing each other. and now all i want is to see him or be by him. WHAT IS THIS?!?!?!?!? i'm crazyy. ahhhh. but i'm scared too. what if all i get is hurt becuase i'm being used? like. earlier he was like. "i haven't gotten action in like 5 months. but i hooked up with this 17 year old on saturday. and it was nice". what if i turn out like that? like someone he'll run to in times of deprivation. you know?? well i dunno. i talked to him last night and he assured me that what happened between us was "sincere" or something. but yeah... that's all i have to say about this whole boy situation...
well. i have a TTE (troy theatre ensemble) banquet tonight.
i have to go...
i love you...
..:Lindz:..
i can't think about anything BUT him.
when the phone rings i run to the phone to see if it's him
if it's not him, i walk around disappointed that my mom thinks i'm crazy
if it is him, i sometimes get speechless or just nervous so i talk a lot...
when he comes over, i get quiet.
and when i look at him, my heart speeds up like 54310985094385234321264890126048x's
and i'm gonna fail my finals cuz all i think about is him, so i won't go to college, and i'll be stuck working in a MCDONALDS <- no complaints though... i like their fries and mcflurries and apple pies...
and all that becuase of a phone call. and now that i got a kiss. or two. or three. i'm like. woah. i can't control it anymore. and it's stupid. cuz we're not even seeing each other. and now all i want is to see him or be by him. WHAT IS THIS?!?!?!?!? i'm crazyy. ahhhh. but i'm scared too. what if all i get is hurt becuase i'm being used? like. earlier he was like. "i haven't gotten action in like 5 months. but i hooked up with this 17 year old on saturday. and it was nice". what if i turn out like that? like someone he'll run to in times of deprivation. you know?? well i dunno. i talked to him last night and he assured me that what happened between us was "sincere" or something. but yeah... that's all i have to say about this whole boy situation...
well. i have a TTE (troy theatre ensemble) banquet tonight.
i have to go...
i love you...
..:Lindz:..