my hearts still on the stairs.
hey....
oh this is so hard... i dont want to be like this anymore. i am not as weak as i may seem. i can handle bad test grades and flat tires better than i can handle our situation. i fight the temptation to do something stupid everyday( because im so dramatic). you are still the boy i love, and will always love. you were the reason i actually wanted to go to a stupid school event like prom, and we had an amazing time...everytime was amazing...we tricked the universe and it came back to kick us on our asses. you were the first boy to tell me you loved me and ment it...i will always have that memory burned into my skull of how you took me to that pretty gazeboo to proclaim your love for me. oh this is so hard... i will never have to question what we had...when we had it. i cried so hard last night that when i went to blow my nose for the 43074368 time, i started to see blood. the whole idea of losing a love because of long distance matters is ubsurd. i mean, i guess we should distance ourselves but im just afraid...of loosing you forever and always wondering about you, and guessing that your alright.
i mean, i see the logic in it but my heart hurts.
oh this is so hard... i dont want to be like this anymore. i am not as weak as i may seem. i can handle bad test grades and flat tires better than i can handle our situation. i fight the temptation to do something stupid everyday( because im so dramatic). you are still the boy i love, and will always love. you were the reason i actually wanted to go to a stupid school event like prom, and we had an amazing time...everytime was amazing...we tricked the universe and it came back to kick us on our asses. you were the first boy to tell me you loved me and ment it...i will always have that memory burned into my skull of how you took me to that pretty gazeboo to proclaim your love for me. oh this is so hard... i will never have to question what we had...when we had it. i cried so hard last night that when i went to blow my nose for the 43074368 time, i started to see blood. the whole idea of losing a love because of long distance matters is ubsurd. i mean, i guess we should distance ourselves but im just afraid...of loosing you forever and always wondering about you, and guessing that your alright.
i mean, i see the logic in it but my heart hurts.