i dont even look at other guys....thery're not him.
i need peace; i need to stop crying;
im trying to talk to thiago and i keep on sobbing because all i want to do is hold him. not only are we not together, but we are...(how many miles it is from here to north carolina) apart. its been more than a month i think. im trying so hard not to be sad and be happy that ill be getting out in a year or so and moving on to new things, but these memories haunt me every day. today me and billy went to the beach area where the yaht club parking is and the mural where the merman and mermaid are holding hands...there was a couple there who were being all coupleish in the same area where me and thiago once sat, and he threw an old braclett an old girlfriend gave to him to show me he was devoted to only me. im an emotional person to begin with. dealing with this has been the hardest thing i have ever endured.
once school starts up again im sure i wont have time to sulk. im taking:
piano II
music theory II
Aural Skills II
band
volleyball (haha wtf)
some english
algebra II
whats even gayer is that i need to take another english class over the summer because im behind aparantly, and you need 2 semesters of english.
i dream of going far away and being on my own. i dream of performing at carnagie hall and being surrounded by music.
as for now, i feel so alone.
im trying to talk to thiago and i keep on sobbing because all i want to do is hold him. not only are we not together, but we are...(how many miles it is from here to north carolina) apart. its been more than a month i think. im trying so hard not to be sad and be happy that ill be getting out in a year or so and moving on to new things, but these memories haunt me every day. today me and billy went to the beach area where the yaht club parking is and the mural where the merman and mermaid are holding hands...there was a couple there who were being all coupleish in the same area where me and thiago once sat, and he threw an old braclett an old girlfriend gave to him to show me he was devoted to only me. im an emotional person to begin with. dealing with this has been the hardest thing i have ever endured.
once school starts up again im sure i wont have time to sulk. im taking:
piano II
music theory II
Aural Skills II
band
volleyball (haha wtf)
some english
algebra II
whats even gayer is that i need to take another english class over the summer because im behind aparantly, and you need 2 semesters of english.
i dream of going far away and being on my own. i dream of performing at carnagie hall and being surrounded by music.
as for now, i feel so alone.