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so do you want me to tell you how good my life is right now? how much i love living here in texas? (dont get me wrong i love it out here more then i do cali). but now it just seems like there is nothing to live for anymore. the only one who i can say i love right now is the only one who was there for me when i was by myself crying at night, when i was lonely and sad, the only one who was with my sis and i when we were by our selves wondering if he will come home this time... it seems like when ever something goes right it ends up crashing down on me. Im not writing this to get sympathy from you guys, im not writing this to get comments, im not writing this b.c i have nothing else to do. im writing this b.c i need someone to talk to, im writing this b.c i have no one else to talk to...... im sick of being talked about, im sick of being called a lier, i tell the truth, i sick of being used, im sick of acting someone im not, im sick of tying to be a good friend and not being treated as a friend,im sick of being your convo, your daily gossip, your daily news, im sick of trying hard to get something and i dont even get it, im sick of living my old life...... why cant anyone see the real me? i guess im to out in the open b.c i keep on getting hurt by everyone. is this what you wanted to hear? is this why i have this stupid thing to tell you how good my life is? im over it im done. i let you get the best of me, and when you grabbed a hold of it you ran off with it.