venting this stuffy shit
i feel im being dicked around friends.
was it a test or just a true attempt at telling me how she feels?
girlfriends suck.
one minute they love you and the next minute they are saying all the normal break up excuses we've all heard before.
then you say... hey, ive heard this shit before, just say it. and they say they want to be with you... but yada yada yada mind fuck mind fuck.
then you say black or white yes or no and they say it's grey.
then you say once im gone im gone... i dont keep in touch. they start crying and saying they meant it when they said they loved you.
and then you think for a while... and say i dont know what you're doing... testing me... fucking with me... playing games?! but cut it out.
this solves nothing but for some reason you are still together and the freak out seems to be over and both are wanting to see the other person.
now i have to make a decision friends...
but i dont like the one im leaning towards at all... because it hurts too bad. and im a perverse optimist. and when i look at this girl i can imagine her at 30... i've never really done that.
is there really room for a grey area? am i expecting too much to say it's a yes or no situation? should i bail? or stick it out through her freak out?
i run too much... maybe this time i shouldnt.
was it a test or just a true attempt at telling me how she feels?
girlfriends suck.
one minute they love you and the next minute they are saying all the normal break up excuses we've all heard before.
then you say... hey, ive heard this shit before, just say it. and they say they want to be with you... but yada yada yada mind fuck mind fuck.
then you say black or white yes or no and they say it's grey.
then you say once im gone im gone... i dont keep in touch. they start crying and saying they meant it when they said they loved you.
and then you think for a while... and say i dont know what you're doing... testing me... fucking with me... playing games?! but cut it out.
this solves nothing but for some reason you are still together and the freak out seems to be over and both are wanting to see the other person.
now i have to make a decision friends...
but i dont like the one im leaning towards at all... because it hurts too bad. and im a perverse optimist. and when i look at this girl i can imagine her at 30... i've never really done that.
is there really room for a grey area? am i expecting too much to say it's a yes or no situation? should i bail? or stick it out through her freak out?
i run too much... maybe this time i shouldnt.