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Sooo sitting here and playing Texas Hold'em on line, and drinking a dutch bros coffee. Things are looking decent, i'm in a better mood then i was in my last blog, which only 2 people have got to read haha so you dont know about that. But any ways... I'm tired... got less then 5 hours of sleep last night, but o well. went to melisa's last night, had some bbq chicken... got my first 4 of a kind.. but was not playing for money or chips, so it sucked... Played bingo as well last night... ALMOST won like a thousand dollars, but they would not call the ONE number i needed... bastards... haha jk.. no but really...anyways..
2 months to go...Two months to be a kid as much as posible... Two months until i can start looking normal... I do not understand when people tell me they loved being pregnant, they loved the way it made them feel, blah blah blah... I hate it. I want out, I look like shit, i'm fat, and that in result gets me no guys, i havent had even a kiss in so long.. But o well i spose.. I guess its a part of my mistake... I think the only people who enjoyed being pregnant had a boyfriend/husband that made them feel great, not the pregnancy. But seriously, if you have a guy when you get pregnant and he sticks around, you have it so much better.. Becuase no guy wants to date a pregnant chick.. O well... I'm scared.. I have no idea what to expect... I kind of wish i was back in idaho at the moment. I would really enjoy that. I miss my mom... I miss my animals... i miss my bed... Sleeping on a couch while pregnant is not very comfortable, expesially when sometimes you also have two cats with you... not fun...
Tonight i am probaly going to play poker, mayyybe win some money... i doubt it though, but i think i will get food haha.. not like i need it. I wake up with heartburn and feel like puking all the time, it really sucks.. I cant sleep sometimes its so bad.. hmmm anyways i'm going to go fall asleep i think
2 months to go...Two months to be a kid as much as posible... Two months until i can start looking normal... I do not understand when people tell me they loved being pregnant, they loved the way it made them feel, blah blah blah... I hate it. I want out, I look like shit, i'm fat, and that in result gets me no guys, i havent had even a kiss in so long.. But o well i spose.. I guess its a part of my mistake... I think the only people who enjoyed being pregnant had a boyfriend/husband that made them feel great, not the pregnancy. But seriously, if you have a guy when you get pregnant and he sticks around, you have it so much better.. Becuase no guy wants to date a pregnant chick.. O well... I'm scared.. I have no idea what to expect... I kind of wish i was back in idaho at the moment. I would really enjoy that. I miss my mom... I miss my animals... i miss my bed... Sleeping on a couch while pregnant is not very comfortable, expesially when sometimes you also have two cats with you... not fun...
Tonight i am probaly going to play poker, mayyybe win some money... i doubt it though, but i think i will get food haha.. not like i need it. I wake up with heartburn and feel like puking all the time, it really sucks.. I cant sleep sometimes its so bad.. hmmm anyways i'm going to go fall asleep i think