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So yesterday was valentines day.
Brian got me roses and food for a picnic. It was reallly nice.
It just made me feel better that he was putting the effort in
But then I got to thinking, last night was perfect, do I now need to get upset in order to then get effort?
It just makes me sad because I think about Brian a lot and miss him a lot, and I just miss when we
were happy and together. I miss all that came with that, the cute text messages just saying that he missed me.
I think that makes me the saddest.
Also the fact I am putting in so much commitment and being honest with him, I hope he does the same.
I think it would break my heart if he hooked up with someone else right now...and that has been freaking me out a lot. nc
I just need assurance. We've been on a break for a month now. I just don't like in between stages, especially when they it doesn't
seem like there will be resolution for a while now. Just the term break makes me uneasy.
Brian got me roses and food for a picnic. It was reallly nice.
It just made me feel better that he was putting the effort in
But then I got to thinking, last night was perfect, do I now need to get upset in order to then get effort?
It just makes me sad because I think about Brian a lot and miss him a lot, and I just miss when we
were happy and together. I miss all that came with that, the cute text messages just saying that he missed me.
I think that makes me the saddest.
Also the fact I am putting in so much commitment and being honest with him, I hope he does the same.
I think it would break my heart if he hooked up with someone else right now...and that has been freaking me out a lot. nc
I just need assurance. We've been on a break for a month now. I just don't like in between stages, especially when they it doesn't
seem like there will be resolution for a while now. Just the term break makes me uneasy.