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I'm done with livejournal. =) Yeap. I deleted every nasty comment you two wrote & banned both of you & anonymous comments. So you can't say anything anymore. But I'm still done. It's time to grow up and if you two won't do it.. then I will. No more commenting. No more insults. Sorry to the people that really do read this. And I'll still read yours. But I'm not writing anymore. If you really want to know how I'm doing. Then ask. =) I've just decided to sort everything out. I've realized that I don't need to have the tons of friends I used to have.. Because if you're gone now.. you were never a friend to start with. To Caitlin Kelly Geoff... the three people I talk to a lot and I feel I can actually trust.... I love you to death. I know now a lot of things I wish I knew before. That you can't trust most people. That most are going to backstab you the second they get a chance. Because they only care about you until the next best thing comes along. That when you find a true friend don't give them up for the world. It may be alot less than you think. But those few are worth more than having 100 fake ones. In a year & 11 days you're not going to talk to half those friends you think you have now. So what is your friendship really then. Just someone you talked about drama with all day. I've learned that keepign to myself & having a few true friends... keeps me out of that. I don't have to deal with the drama. I don't know nothing & I don't say nothing. It's amazing. My life is drama-free from now on. I love it. I was miserable over this before. But then I thought why be miserable over something you're never going to change. People are for the most part narrow-minded, self-absorbed, and they don't care about you... so why worry over them. I know who I need. And who will always be there for me when I need someone to talk to. I know who I can call up in the middle of the night. I'm head over heels in love with the most amazing guy I've ever met. And nothing's goign to change that. If you've ever been in love than you know that it's next to impossible to get them off your mind. That every second you're not with them you miss them. It feels like you just want to tell the world how you feel... but you don't have the world. It's like constant butterflies. It's an amazing feeling. If you've never been in love than I guess you wouldn't understand that though. I don't care how many times I'm told I talk about him too much. I know my real friends will be right there to pull up a chair and listen. Because they know how happy I am & they are just generally interested in hearing about what I have to say... cause they know if they wanted to talk I'd be there in a heartbeat. That I would give them a shoulder to cry on all night if I had too. Cause I genuinely care about each and everyone of my friends with all my heart. And I would do anything for them. If choosing to give him a second chance caused me to lose friends... then so be it. You weren't a real friend if after seeing how happy I am.. you still disagree with my choice. I would make the same choice all over again if given the chance. I don't regret a single thing now... and I probably never will. I know that when I wake up every morning I have something to look forward to. I know that someone's thinking about me. And if that's so wrong then you're not worth my time. No more worrying about what you think and what you're saying about me. It always makes me feel guilty in the end. I shouldn't care. I should only care about how I feel about him. And from now on that's all I do care about. Nothing you say can bother me anymore. No more beign the doormat that everyone used to joke around about me being. Time to toughen up. I'm happy from now on. All smiles. You can't bring me down. =)