update turned to rant
I'm super excited about the new year. I know it is just a stupid calendar change, so I don't really count it as the new year till jan 5th or 6th which is when school starts. School has had a bigger influence on my life than the calendar.
I'm going to start saving for a trip to Europe. In conjunction with this, I am going to take a break for engaging in multiple vices, many of which are costly. The amount of money I spend on alcohol, eating out, and entertainment accounts for the majority of my income. While I'll still engage in some entertainment, I'm going to take a break from alcohol, coffee drinks (usually a daily expenditure), and eating out as well as trying to eat as healthy as possible which includes avoiding prepackaged foods (with some exceptions). Also going to cut out refined sugar. Fruits, honey, natural juices, and a possible exception for organic jam will be allowed.
Some of my money will pay for eating healthier, but the majority of it will be saved for Europe. If I can get decent hours and don't have too many car problems, it shouldn't be long before I have enough to buy a plane ticket with Amanda. This saving/cleansing process will go extremely well with my attempt to expand my consciousness and become more spiritual. It's hard to do anything spiritually related when you are getting drunk every night, eating apple fritters, and playing video games in the majority of your free time.
Anyway, I texted and told a few people about a new years eve party, and brock is the only one who responded. To avoid the similar fate of my graduation "party" whereby Brock was the only one that attended (I love you Brock), I'll probably just go with him and anyone else who comes over to Shey's house, or someone else's who is having a party.
Got some tarot cards, and they quite accurately described my recent house drama as well as outlining a possible future path. Also got some mad, sweet camping gear. Now I can go camping whenever I want and not have to try and wait for other people to want to go. There will be many solo and 2-person camp outs in the near future, probably starting in March. If you wanna go camping with me, let me know. All you need is a sleeping bag and my warm hairy body next to you.
Speaking of drama, the last week has been chalk full of it. I have never had some many people involved in so much drama that appears unlinked, but probably universally is all linked, in such a short time. 2 managers at my work almost got fired, and 10 ppl from three different households went through such emotions and actions as hate, jealousy, rage, theft, violence threats, slander, threats of restraining orders, intentions to move, feelings of violation, declarations of not seeing someone again, declarations of not having certain people over to their household ever, threats to call the police, love, backstabbing, betrayel, miscommunication, and ego trips. I know there were many more than 10 ppl and 3 households that were strongly affected, but alas, I do not know close enough the other people that were involved or affected. Furthermore, I had to deal with my girlfriend's mom confronting me about how I dare fuck her daughter and not be more committed. This was after hours of her mom screaming at her, while she cried and begged her mom to leave. THAT was fun. There were so many things I wanted to say, but I managed to tell her that she needed to leave my girlfriend's house. Remember kids, always take relationship advice from some crazed, bitch parent who has had 2, yes, TWO divorces on what to do in your relationship.
As soon as I want to be divorced, I will gladly come ask your advice! I know alot of people think my mom is a bitch, but she would never harass one of my girlfriends, or the extent of her harassment would be asking them what they are studying in school or how their family is doing. So now I get to deal with a paranoid mom spending all her free time (NO SHE DOESN'T HAVE A JOB) researching me and finding reasons why Amanda should break up with me. She looked up my myspace which I haven't accessed in a year and questioned why there were no pictures of Amanda up. Solid reason to break up. I can't wait till she gets to my criminal record. yay, 7 misdeamnors! She has probably already looked me up on facebook, and found my lj sn. I guess I should give a shout out to her. Thanks for getting between me and the girl I love. You have over stepped your bounds by miles and have replaced your status as an ally to an enemy. I will not step foot in your house again, and if me and Amanda end up staying together after your bullshit you will not be welcome in our house should we ever live together.
Then again I have trouble holding grudges for more than a year. Especially with my upcoming focus on love and spirtuality. As much as I hate her mom right now, I will have to give up these feelings towards her to continue my learning. Study! Study! Study! Speaking of controlling feelings, I realized that I have very little control over my feelings compared to the amount of control the environment has. While, I have a decent amount of control over my actions, (there are still a couple guitars that are not in pieces right now), having control over your emotions in a highly emotional event is much harder. After my household drama, every night I would lay there for 2-3 hours being ultra pissed and thinking about what I could do. After talking I no longer feel this way, but I am now aware of how much work I have to do to control my emotions and not let my emotions control me or my thoughts. As shitty as many situations are you can still learn something from them.
Anyway, I'm going to start doing somethings that I feel I should be doing instead of playing Warcraft III all day today. We'll see how long my motivation holds out, but I need to sell my plasma, set up my bookshelf and re-arrange my room, find my nail clippers, change or add transmission and brake fluid to my car, and apply for a passport.
I'm going to start saving for a trip to Europe. In conjunction with this, I am going to take a break for engaging in multiple vices, many of which are costly. The amount of money I spend on alcohol, eating out, and entertainment accounts for the majority of my income. While I'll still engage in some entertainment, I'm going to take a break from alcohol, coffee drinks (usually a daily expenditure), and eating out as well as trying to eat as healthy as possible which includes avoiding prepackaged foods (with some exceptions). Also going to cut out refined sugar. Fruits, honey, natural juices, and a possible exception for organic jam will be allowed.
Some of my money will pay for eating healthier, but the majority of it will be saved for Europe. If I can get decent hours and don't have too many car problems, it shouldn't be long before I have enough to buy a plane ticket with Amanda. This saving/cleansing process will go extremely well with my attempt to expand my consciousness and become more spiritual. It's hard to do anything spiritually related when you are getting drunk every night, eating apple fritters, and playing video games in the majority of your free time.
Anyway, I texted and told a few people about a new years eve party, and brock is the only one who responded. To avoid the similar fate of my graduation "party" whereby Brock was the only one that attended (I love you Brock), I'll probably just go with him and anyone else who comes over to Shey's house, or someone else's who is having a party.
Got some tarot cards, and they quite accurately described my recent house drama as well as outlining a possible future path. Also got some mad, sweet camping gear. Now I can go camping whenever I want and not have to try and wait for other people to want to go. There will be many solo and 2-person camp outs in the near future, probably starting in March. If you wanna go camping with me, let me know. All you need is a sleeping bag and my warm hairy body next to you.
Speaking of drama, the last week has been chalk full of it. I have never had some many people involved in so much drama that appears unlinked, but probably universally is all linked, in such a short time. 2 managers at my work almost got fired, and 10 ppl from three different households went through such emotions and actions as hate, jealousy, rage, theft, violence threats, slander, threats of restraining orders, intentions to move, feelings of violation, declarations of not seeing someone again, declarations of not having certain people over to their household ever, threats to call the police, love, backstabbing, betrayel, miscommunication, and ego trips. I know there were many more than 10 ppl and 3 households that were strongly affected, but alas, I do not know close enough the other people that were involved or affected. Furthermore, I had to deal with my girlfriend's mom confronting me about how I dare fuck her daughter and not be more committed. This was after hours of her mom screaming at her, while she cried and begged her mom to leave. THAT was fun. There were so many things I wanted to say, but I managed to tell her that she needed to leave my girlfriend's house. Remember kids, always take relationship advice from some crazed, bitch parent who has had 2, yes, TWO divorces on what to do in your relationship.
As soon as I want to be divorced, I will gladly come ask your advice! I know alot of people think my mom is a bitch, but she would never harass one of my girlfriends, or the extent of her harassment would be asking them what they are studying in school or how their family is doing. So now I get to deal with a paranoid mom spending all her free time (NO SHE DOESN'T HAVE A JOB) researching me and finding reasons why Amanda should break up with me. She looked up my myspace which I haven't accessed in a year and questioned why there were no pictures of Amanda up. Solid reason to break up. I can't wait till she gets to my criminal record. yay, 7 misdeamnors! She has probably already looked me up on facebook, and found my lj sn. I guess I should give a shout out to her. Thanks for getting between me and the girl I love. You have over stepped your bounds by miles and have replaced your status as an ally to an enemy. I will not step foot in your house again, and if me and Amanda end up staying together after your bullshit you will not be welcome in our house should we ever live together.
Then again I have trouble holding grudges for more than a year. Especially with my upcoming focus on love and spirtuality. As much as I hate her mom right now, I will have to give up these feelings towards her to continue my learning. Study! Study! Study! Speaking of controlling feelings, I realized that I have very little control over my feelings compared to the amount of control the environment has. While, I have a decent amount of control over my actions, (there are still a couple guitars that are not in pieces right now), having control over your emotions in a highly emotional event is much harder. After my household drama, every night I would lay there for 2-3 hours being ultra pissed and thinking about what I could do. After talking I no longer feel this way, but I am now aware of how much work I have to do to control my emotions and not let my emotions control me or my thoughts. As shitty as many situations are you can still learn something from them.
Anyway, I'm going to start doing somethings that I feel I should be doing instead of playing Warcraft III all day today. We'll see how long my motivation holds out, but I need to sell my plasma, set up my bookshelf and re-arrange my room, find my nail clippers, change or add transmission and brake fluid to my car, and apply for a passport.