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So my emotions are a little bit more undercontrol now.
Life is hitting me with alot of obsticles right now.
But its ok.
I spent the night at Adams last night. Which is completley out of the ordinary. We talked about alot of shit. But I understand why he was being such a prick the past few months.
He wanted me to be with someone else becuase he thought thats what i wanted. I wanted to be with someone else because i thought thats what he wanted.
He met the 4 kittens last night. If it was up to him he would prolly have taken them all home with him. One really liked him, it sat on his shoulder like a parrot half the time he was over here.
Im excited about Jeff State. Noone thinks i can do it. But i really have no choice. I have to in order to life a half way decent life.
Everyone around me is leaving. I have to fend for myself now.
Like Adam said... Im terrified. Ive never had to depend on just myself for support and comfort. He says that if i need those things that hes willing to give them to me.
But we arent back together. By no means. We are just really good friends. Who just happend to love each other, back in the day.
I want to see someone. He leaves so soon.
Friday will be awesome tho.
:)
Life is hitting me with alot of obsticles right now.
But its ok.
I spent the night at Adams last night. Which is completley out of the ordinary. We talked about alot of shit. But I understand why he was being such a prick the past few months.
He wanted me to be with someone else becuase he thought thats what i wanted. I wanted to be with someone else because i thought thats what he wanted.
He met the 4 kittens last night. If it was up to him he would prolly have taken them all home with him. One really liked him, it sat on his shoulder like a parrot half the time he was over here.
Im excited about Jeff State. Noone thinks i can do it. But i really have no choice. I have to in order to life a half way decent life.
Everyone around me is leaving. I have to fend for myself now.
Like Adam said... Im terrified. Ive never had to depend on just myself for support and comfort. He says that if i need those things that hes willing to give them to me.
But we arent back together. By no means. We are just really good friends. Who just happend to love each other, back in the day.
I want to see someone. He leaves so soon.
Friday will be awesome tho.
:)