Alone
This is something I wrote a while ago. It's Depressing. Posting it anyway.
The breadth of a heartbeat seems to last an eternity. I see through eyes not as familiar as my own. The barren trees bend with the weight of the wind, whistling like the sparrow’ cry. The sun’s blurred rays streak brokenly through the clouds. Your voice resounds in my head.
“Run. The destination doesn’t matter, as long as you get away. Don’t tell anyone. Forget this life and disappear. You have to leave before I endanger you. They’re after you and there is nothing I can do to keep you safe if I have to watch out for you constantly.”
Why?
You tell me to run, to escape this place. But how can I leave the one place I’ve come to know as home?
Everything brings you to mind. The raindrops sliding down the leaves, magnifying their emerald hue, reminds me of your eyes. The grain, planted in a patchwork pattern around our tiny little town, reminds me of your hair, flowing softly in the breeze. The sun, seen not nearly enough, turns both to liquid gold. In the space of a minute, a thousand things remind me of you.
I beg myself to leave, to turn away from all the fading, crackling memories that still seep through the walls placed within my mind. The constant reminders of your absence in my life have become increasingly hard to ignore. Despite the numerous motives I have to disappear, to vanish from this place, I linger. You, however, seem to be able to think sensibly.
“If you won’t go, then I will.”
With that, you turned away. I felt my heartbreak, shatter, as you turned and sped from my life. The heartbreak still echoes within my chest, a sharp piercing pain that remains long after the initial assault.
I wait for the night. It will be a reprieve.