committing
i think commitment is the thing.
i obviously don't want to waste time on guys who I know aren't right for me - i've done that enough already, don't you think?
so i'm not willing to date around and play the field anymore, i'm in that business-woman like mode where i don't even have time to think about dating guys. is that why i'm so desperate for it to work out with him then?
i'm not desperate though. i just wish i knew. i wish i could be confident in myself and my decisions. but at the same time, this period of my life is glorious. I have so much ahead of me, so much to do and become. i am excited for my future because i know it'll be great.
life has a way of working out. It always has. I'm strong enough to know when to remove myself from situations. If I were to stop caring about all this mess and feelings and just started enjoying my time with friends, I would probably have a better life. I need to trust myself to know that if I started to feel like it's time to move on from someone, I would do it. I wouldn't force myself to stay with someone because I have proven time and time again that I physically cannot do it. I can absolutely not live with myself if i were to do that. I would drive myself into such a deep depression that i would hate living, all because i don't want to hurt someone else's feelings. i absolutely trust myself to know that i would recognize the signs of that happening again and i would remove myself. but at the same time, i have to give things a chance. i can't automatically assume this'll happen AND IF IT DOES, refer to my previous thought. I WILL BE FINE.
i obviously don't want to waste time on guys who I know aren't right for me - i've done that enough already, don't you think?
so i'm not willing to date around and play the field anymore, i'm in that business-woman like mode where i don't even have time to think about dating guys. is that why i'm so desperate for it to work out with him then?
i'm not desperate though. i just wish i knew. i wish i could be confident in myself and my decisions. but at the same time, this period of my life is glorious. I have so much ahead of me, so much to do and become. i am excited for my future because i know it'll be great.
life has a way of working out. It always has. I'm strong enough to know when to remove myself from situations. If I were to stop caring about all this mess and feelings and just started enjoying my time with friends, I would probably have a better life. I need to trust myself to know that if I started to feel like it's time to move on from someone, I would do it. I wouldn't force myself to stay with someone because I have proven time and time again that I physically cannot do it. I can absolutely not live with myself if i were to do that. I would drive myself into such a deep depression that i would hate living, all because i don't want to hurt someone else's feelings. i absolutely trust myself to know that i would recognize the signs of that happening again and i would remove myself. but at the same time, i have to give things a chance. i can't automatically assume this'll happen AND IF IT DOES, refer to my previous thought. I WILL BE FINE.