"Im writing to you, not to tell you that i still hate you, just to ask you how you feel.."
I just heard something that made me so much more thankful for what i have in life, and everyone needs to be thankful for things in their life while they're THERE before they are gone. Your family, your friends, memories. It is all about living your life to the fullest, because something could be gone the next day,without you even knowing its going to be.
Went over to the Kennedys tonight, suppose to go to skating lessons with thembut they skipped them instead. Spent time with all of them and had a lot of fun, as usual. Jake was cranky, but we managed. Jake came to greet me at my car and now he always screams "MELLLANIIIIEEE!!!" and is so excited to see me, always makes me smile. e cried for a half hour to not let me go, couldn't ge tthe DVD working so we read a lot of stories instead and then cuddled in his bed and i rubbed his back until he fell asleep. He's cute, and my little man is 5 years old now. e had a birthday 2 weeks ago and i took him out to get his present tonight, he loved it! we got him some bath foam and he amde me sit in the bathroom while he played with it and we washed his hair haha Things like that make me really happy that i can be there an dlearn with him and have fun with him and have him so excited to see me everytime i go over or he sees me
It's been apretty laid back weekend though, i watched A LOT of movies and didnt really do anything. Im babysitting Jakey from 11;30-3 tomorrow, and his mom has to go get her nails done and go to a viewing/funeral and afterwards im going into school to help Coach and Schu seperate new/old uniforms, throw hopefully a lot out and ask for new ones.
Wednesday is getting ready for Towson overnight, have to leave here by like 2:30 it starts at 4 and i wont be home until Thursday afternoon around 3. Im scared, i guess. Im not good with meeting new people or anything like that, should be an experience--all of one growing up.
And in these times, i could say i am most thankful for God and how he can always be within me whenever i need him. I am so thankful for what i have--my family, my friends, everything. And even if my cousins and aunts and uncles are going through times (divorce, breaks, breakoff of weddings) still, everyone is in my life. And we of course, are still getting by the best that we can. And everynight my aunt is in my prayers that she'll be happierone day without my uncle, and my cousin and her fiance' will figure things out and their wedding will eventually work out and tha tmy family will be close to back to normal again because i really miss how it use to be <3. SO much change in one period of time,w ithin a year--its been enormous. But, Eventually it will b e okay if there is a positive outlook on it all, and God is by my side in all of my prayers.
Time for bed
Im not tired but im just going to lay down and see what happens
Goooddniighhtt<3
Went over to the Kennedys tonight, suppose to go to skating lessons with thembut they skipped them instead. Spent time with all of them and had a lot of fun, as usual. Jake was cranky, but we managed. Jake came to greet me at my car and now he always screams "MELLLANIIIIEEE!!!" and is so excited to see me, always makes me smile. e cried for a half hour to not let me go, couldn't ge tthe DVD working so we read a lot of stories instead and then cuddled in his bed and i rubbed his back until he fell asleep. He's cute, and my little man is 5 years old now. e had a birthday 2 weeks ago and i took him out to get his present tonight, he loved it! we got him some bath foam and he amde me sit in the bathroom while he played with it and we washed his hair haha Things like that make me really happy that i can be there an dlearn with him and have fun with him and have him so excited to see me everytime i go over or he sees me
It's been apretty laid back weekend though, i watched A LOT of movies and didnt really do anything. Im babysitting Jakey from 11;30-3 tomorrow, and his mom has to go get her nails done and go to a viewing/funeral and afterwards im going into school to help Coach and Schu seperate new/old uniforms, throw hopefully a lot out and ask for new ones.
Wednesday is getting ready for Towson overnight, have to leave here by like 2:30 it starts at 4 and i wont be home until Thursday afternoon around 3. Im scared, i guess. Im not good with meeting new people or anything like that, should be an experience--all of one growing up.
And in these times, i could say i am most thankful for God and how he can always be within me whenever i need him. I am so thankful for what i have--my family, my friends, everything. And even if my cousins and aunts and uncles are going through times (divorce, breaks, breakoff of weddings) still, everyone is in my life. And we of course, are still getting by the best that we can. And everynight my aunt is in my prayers that she'll be happierone day without my uncle, and my cousin and her fiance' will figure things out and their wedding will eventually work out and tha tmy family will be close to back to normal again because i really miss how it use to be <3. SO much change in one period of time,w ithin a year--its been enormous. But, Eventually it will b e okay if there is a positive outlook on it all, and God is by my side in all of my prayers.
Time for bed
Im not tired but im just going to lay down and see what happens
Goooddniighhtt<3