"Im wishing on a star, and trying to beleive, and even though its far, he'll find me Christmas Eve..
Listening to Christmas music, watching the Polar Express and considering the circumstances that interupted me during the movie-i started thinking about how different my christmas is going to be. It's been trials and tribulations so far with the family. At this time, im starting to miss my uncle as the family is together. Somethings missing, its just not there.
Things are on the rough edges with him andmy aunt right now, and im not sure when its going to be cleared up. I miss him, and i hate seeing my Aunt the way she is sometimes. So, my aunt isnt finanially able to buy everyone a present int he family. Theres been all these ideas about what we might want to do for christmas to help her out-and we decided to draw names. Because of this one circumstance we're changing the way everything goes. I know that Christmas is a time of giving and helping, i love my aunt-but i also want things to be the same, and i honestly dontcare if she cant afford to buy me a present, i love her-and she's part of my family and thats all that is going to matter to me when we open presents christmas eve night. I open first every year sincce I'm the youngest on that side of the family, last year we did it backwards and it took a lonnnggg time. I just want things to be "Tradition" like i've known them to since i was born, or from when i can remember. My aunt gets upset she cant buy presents like she is ashamed of it, and when we had birthdays my grandmother put 20$ ine very card that she couldnt put money in.
Im going to miss opening my coins and knowing what they are, or getting the ornament i get every year from the two of them. Im going to miss getting help with my math homework and im going to miss seeing his face around, it isnt the same, somethings always missing-and you know, i might not ever see him for quite a while, i really want him to come to my graduation. He's mygodfather. I just think im really worried about this situation. Its different, my family seemed so perfect, but all perfect families have faults. I love them both, and however it ends up-i want them to still have contact and talk with each other.
Anyway, bowling tomorrow so only 2 real periods. One of which i have amath quiz which SHOULD be pretty sinch, then a whole period of dreadful Macbeth through ACT 4 that i was suppose to read but am so behind on anyway.
Have a good weekend/Friday
Goodniigghhtt<3
I watched the Polar Express bc my dad bought it for me today, mannn GOOODDD MOVIE. i loved it, its only rated G but its so good-really cute.
Things are on the rough edges with him andmy aunt right now, and im not sure when its going to be cleared up. I miss him, and i hate seeing my Aunt the way she is sometimes. So, my aunt isnt finanially able to buy everyone a present int he family. Theres been all these ideas about what we might want to do for christmas to help her out-and we decided to draw names. Because of this one circumstance we're changing the way everything goes. I know that Christmas is a time of giving and helping, i love my aunt-but i also want things to be the same, and i honestly dontcare if she cant afford to buy me a present, i love her-and she's part of my family and thats all that is going to matter to me when we open presents christmas eve night. I open first every year sincce I'm the youngest on that side of the family, last year we did it backwards and it took a lonnnggg time. I just want things to be "Tradition" like i've known them to since i was born, or from when i can remember. My aunt gets upset she cant buy presents like she is ashamed of it, and when we had birthdays my grandmother put 20$ ine very card that she couldnt put money in.
Im going to miss opening my coins and knowing what they are, or getting the ornament i get every year from the two of them. Im going to miss getting help with my math homework and im going to miss seeing his face around, it isnt the same, somethings always missing-and you know, i might not ever see him for quite a while, i really want him to come to my graduation. He's mygodfather. I just think im really worried about this situation. Its different, my family seemed so perfect, but all perfect families have faults. I love them both, and however it ends up-i want them to still have contact and talk with each other.
Anyway, bowling tomorrow so only 2 real periods. One of which i have amath quiz which SHOULD be pretty sinch, then a whole period of dreadful Macbeth through ACT 4 that i was suppose to read but am so behind on anyway.
Have a good weekend/Friday
Goodniigghhtt<3
I watched the Polar Express bc my dad bought it for me today, mannn GOOODDD MOVIE. i loved it, its only rated G but its so good-really cute.