"Its just your doubt that finds you.."
Three people congratulated me for my article yesterday in the transcript, and today on this sunday morning..my old Pastor had emailed me a note to say congratulations and it was nice to read something like that int he transcript. Having a lady pastor at church is really different, and i miss him. I would always LIKE to go to church when he was there, now it just seems different, like there isnt as much power there or something. I saw him in the school hallway the other day as well, then i got an email from him and it sorta just made me smile and have a good morning. It was a good feeling and Christmas is coming so more good feelings are on the way and this is when i start making a lot of money babysitting because people have to go to so many parties and play Santa.
Oh, i remember the days when i use to believe in Santa and on Christmas eve my family would say"Melanie, you have to get home so Santa can come" and that was just so my parents didnt spend all night putting out our gifts by the tree.
For the past 2 nights i have had some wacko dreams. Last night i was in Florida with my family except on this huge boat and we went on thisr ide and they told us to get ont he ladder, and go all the way down to the last step, but then we were completely emerged in water, and i had on my glasses and they said hold on to them and just keep coming up for breaths but i lost my glasses and i said OOPS dad guess i really have to get new ones now (which is weird bc i do need new glasses haha) so it was one weird dream-and the night before i had the most RANDOM dream about Christopher and the Kennedy family, oh it was weird, but we were at the beach and i think i was halfway trying to recollect what happened in the summer but it was soo far off from it, it was weird. There was no beach, it was just all water, and christopher and i were in it and yeaahh
Today im just doing all my homework, and being a bum like i have done every day of this vacation bc i've had so much to do. I must say i wrote a pretty amazing community service and leadership letter for towson, though. AND ready set..I SENT IN MY FIRST COLLEGE APPLICATION!! it doesnt really mean anything bc i have 4 more to go and have to write 2 more essays. It's a start, and it was anice feeling to see that damn application going in the envelope and being sealed up for good.
This song..It's Fall Out Boy's "Grand theft Autumn" and if you change all the him's to her's..It's for him.
Where is your boy GIRL tonight? I hope he SHE is a Lady
Maybe he SHE won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.
When I wake up,
I'm willing to take my chances on the hope i forget you hate
HER more than you notice I wrote this for you.
You need hER. I could be HER...
I could be an accident but I'm still trying.
That's more than I can say for HER.
Where is your GIRL tonight? I hope she is a LADY
Maybe she won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.
Someday I'll appreciate in value, get off my ass and call you...
but for the meantime I'll sport my brand new fashion of waking up
with pants on at 4:00 in the afternoon.
You need her. I could be her...
I could be an accident but I'm still trying.
That's more than I can say for her.
Where is your girl tonight? I hope she is a Lady
Maybe she won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.
Where is your GIRL tonight? I hope She is a LADY
Maybe She won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.
Where is your GIRL tonight? I hope she is a LADY
Maybe she won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.