[drabble] of things so impossible
kris/kyungsoo, pg, ~700w
"i’m going for a walk," kyungsoo says, holding his keys up. "wanna come?"
kris looks up from his phone, taking a second to flick his eyes over kyungsoo and try to figure out what mood he’s in. does he need to talk about something? “sure,” he says, smiling a little, and kyungsoo smiles back, eyes still wide and happy. “hold on okay? i’m gonna finish this text.”
"i’m getting my shoes on," kyungsoo answers, already halfway down the hallway.
on the way to the park, kris tries to make conversation, asking little questions about kyungsoo’s day and if he’s been well. he’s not sure why kyungsoo invited him; while they enjoy each other’s presence, they don’t really talk much, and if kyungsoo needed to talk to him about something he hasn’t brought it up and kris can’t intuit whatever it is. honestly kyungsoo’s lack of interest in conversation or reciprocal questions is kind of getting him down; they don’t get many chances to be alone together, and kris has been burning for kyungsoo’s attention at a low level for months. he feels kinda… rejected. plus, he’s not actually a really talkative guy on his own, and he runs out of questions fast.
kyungsoo’s dressed more warmly than he is, being the more experienced walker and not a total dumbass like kris himself. when kris runs out of conversation starters, they walk in silence, kyungsoo’s face blank each time kris sneaks a sideways glance at it. he mostly watches his shoes, feeling bad about not being the kind of interesting person that could get kyungsoo to open up. is joonmyeon that interesting? is jongin? kyungsoo spends so much time with them. he finds himself hunching, trying to make himself less gangly and huge to be more on level with kyungsoo; once, he looks over and finds kyungsoo peeking back at him, and they chuckle together awkwardly as they keep walking.
when they get to the river, kris’ hair is definitely a mess and he’s definitely shivering. kyungsoo stands close to him as they walk up to the railing that separates them form the water; kris follows, glancing down at how close their hands are, how little kyungsoo’s are compared to his, and is flooded with memories of every time their hands have touched in the last month. with their backs to home, kyungsoo looks north over the water and sighs, crossing his arms and leaning forward, wind flipping his scarf around and exposing his forehead behind his hair. kris follows as kyungsoo turns to watch, smiling at him as kris folds himself as small as he can, sinking into his shoulders so he’s in line with kyungsoo. he’s not used to being so close to his face; there’s always so much distance between them.
"thanks for coming with me," kyungsoo says, and the wonderful opportunity kris has to say something cute back is ruined by kyungsoo’s scarf blowing right into kris’ face. he bats it away but the moment is ruined, and there’s nothing left to do but laugh at himself apologetically and sink lower into his shoulders. "so cute," kyungsoo teases, and kris feels hope and pride and pleasure burn the tips of his ears as they hold each other’s eyes and smile. kyungsoo looks apologetic. kris chuckles’ their gaze breaks.
a moment passes.
"um, did you wanna talk about something?" kris offers eventually, licking his lower lip against the dry wind.
kyungsoo’s eyebrows rise, and for a moment he looks even more adorable and lost than usual.
"um. like what?" he asks, eyes still wide and face neutral.
kris shrugs. “i just thought. you wanted.” his brows furrow, then smooth. “wait, so why’d you invite me?”
kyungsoo laughs nervously and takes a moment before answering. “i just wanted… to be with you,” he says, and kris’ smile is immediate and feels like it fills his whole body. kyungsoo flashes one of those heart-shaped smiles again, eyes crinkling, and the smile stays in place as he looks down past his folded elbows at the water. kris watches his profile, enraptured. “just to hang out.”
kris feels wobbly, like he might just tip into the water or something. “okay,” he says, beaming, and kyungsoo looks up again, catches his eye, and they both have to look back at the water again for a second.
kris feels too good to beat himself up over how dumb his question was. kyungsoo just wanted to be with him.
"it feels good, doesn’t it?" kyungsoo asks, holding a handful of his scarf so it doesn’t get unruly. kris watches his fingers knead at it, delicate. "to just be out here together, quietly?"
kris’ knees feel like water. “yeah,” he answers, and his answer is entirely honest. ”it does.”
"i’m going for a walk," kyungsoo says, holding his keys up. "wanna come?"
kris looks up from his phone, taking a second to flick his eyes over kyungsoo and try to figure out what mood he’s in. does he need to talk about something? “sure,” he says, smiling a little, and kyungsoo smiles back, eyes still wide and happy. “hold on okay? i’m gonna finish this text.”
"i’m getting my shoes on," kyungsoo answers, already halfway down the hallway.
on the way to the park, kris tries to make conversation, asking little questions about kyungsoo’s day and if he’s been well. he’s not sure why kyungsoo invited him; while they enjoy each other’s presence, they don’t really talk much, and if kyungsoo needed to talk to him about something he hasn’t brought it up and kris can’t intuit whatever it is. honestly kyungsoo’s lack of interest in conversation or reciprocal questions is kind of getting him down; they don’t get many chances to be alone together, and kris has been burning for kyungsoo’s attention at a low level for months. he feels kinda… rejected. plus, he’s not actually a really talkative guy on his own, and he runs out of questions fast.
kyungsoo’s dressed more warmly than he is, being the more experienced walker and not a total dumbass like kris himself. when kris runs out of conversation starters, they walk in silence, kyungsoo’s face blank each time kris sneaks a sideways glance at it. he mostly watches his shoes, feeling bad about not being the kind of interesting person that could get kyungsoo to open up. is joonmyeon that interesting? is jongin? kyungsoo spends so much time with them. he finds himself hunching, trying to make himself less gangly and huge to be more on level with kyungsoo; once, he looks over and finds kyungsoo peeking back at him, and they chuckle together awkwardly as they keep walking.
when they get to the river, kris’ hair is definitely a mess and he’s definitely shivering. kyungsoo stands close to him as they walk up to the railing that separates them form the water; kris follows, glancing down at how close their hands are, how little kyungsoo’s are compared to his, and is flooded with memories of every time their hands have touched in the last month. with their backs to home, kyungsoo looks north over the water and sighs, crossing his arms and leaning forward, wind flipping his scarf around and exposing his forehead behind his hair. kris follows as kyungsoo turns to watch, smiling at him as kris folds himself as small as he can, sinking into his shoulders so he’s in line with kyungsoo. he’s not used to being so close to his face; there’s always so much distance between them.
"thanks for coming with me," kyungsoo says, and the wonderful opportunity kris has to say something cute back is ruined by kyungsoo’s scarf blowing right into kris’ face. he bats it away but the moment is ruined, and there’s nothing left to do but laugh at himself apologetically and sink lower into his shoulders. "so cute," kyungsoo teases, and kris feels hope and pride and pleasure burn the tips of his ears as they hold each other’s eyes and smile. kyungsoo looks apologetic. kris chuckles’ their gaze breaks.
a moment passes.
"um, did you wanna talk about something?" kris offers eventually, licking his lower lip against the dry wind.
kyungsoo’s eyebrows rise, and for a moment he looks even more adorable and lost than usual.
"um. like what?" he asks, eyes still wide and face neutral.
kris shrugs. “i just thought. you wanted.” his brows furrow, then smooth. “wait, so why’d you invite me?”
kyungsoo laughs nervously and takes a moment before answering. “i just wanted… to be with you,” he says, and kris’ smile is immediate and feels like it fills his whole body. kyungsoo flashes one of those heart-shaped smiles again, eyes crinkling, and the smile stays in place as he looks down past his folded elbows at the water. kris watches his profile, enraptured. “just to hang out.”
kris feels wobbly, like he might just tip into the water or something. “okay,” he says, beaming, and kyungsoo looks up again, catches his eye, and they both have to look back at the water again for a second.
kris feels too good to beat himself up over how dumb his question was. kyungsoo just wanted to be with him.
"it feels good, doesn’t it?" kyungsoo asks, holding a handful of his scarf so it doesn’t get unruly. kris watches his fingers knead at it, delicate. "to just be out here together, quietly?"
kris’ knees feel like water. “yeah,” he answers, and his answer is entirely honest. ”it does.”