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the past 3 nights i have had the worst case of insomnia i have ever had. i really dont know what my issue is but this is getting real old real fast. of course the fact that my ears hurt when ever i try to lay on my side doesnt help but still. WHY CANT I FREAKING GO TO SLEEP! last night i climbed in to bed around 12:30 and didnt fall asleep til around 3. ugh i dont know what to do. this sucks so much. if you know me you know i love my sleep and it makes me so mad that i cant fall asleep. i dont wanna take sleeping pills cause i know ill never wake up in the morning ill be pretty much close to dead. anybody have any suggestions? i could really use some! lol.
in other news, i made it through my frist week of college. woo! and i feel like i never go out anymore. like i have so many days when i can stay out late cause most of my classes dont start til 1:20. but theres never anything to do and nobody ever feels like going out anymore. i miss randomly hanging out with melissa. i also miss mine and cassi's talks on her front porch. all that stuff feels so long ago. and it just makes me feel so depressed. i miss everyone.
i love how not being able to sleep makes me ramble.
you know its weird to think back and think of all my relationships with people and how much theyve changed in the past few years. god, weve all been through so much. in a way its kinda scary. it puzzles me how people can grow so far apart over such a short span of time. it sucks so much especially when it seems like theres nothing you can do about it but just let it happen. but in complete and total honesty if the things that happened didnt happen we may not be who we are today. and if you like who you are today who are you to regret all of that. i know i have done some things that im really not proud of. i know im not perfect. but honestly i dont think i would be who i am now. and i really am happy with who i am now. i dont know if im making any sense to anyone. haha im starting to feel like pehush and his ramblings. wow i miss that kid a lot. lol. but think about it, events in your life change who are. and if you really are happy with who you are, why regret the bad things. bad things shape a person too. not only the good things. its also really weird to think about how something so little can change a persons life drastically. like "what wouldve happened if i did this" or "what wouldve happened i didnt do that" once again im probably making no sense to anyone but myself but i honestly dont care. my minds just all over the place tonight. ok im gonna stop and try to go to sleep again.
in other news, i made it through my frist week of college. woo! and i feel like i never go out anymore. like i have so many days when i can stay out late cause most of my classes dont start til 1:20. but theres never anything to do and nobody ever feels like going out anymore. i miss randomly hanging out with melissa. i also miss mine and cassi's talks on her front porch. all that stuff feels so long ago. and it just makes me feel so depressed. i miss everyone.
i love how not being able to sleep makes me ramble.
you know its weird to think back and think of all my relationships with people and how much theyve changed in the past few years. god, weve all been through so much. in a way its kinda scary. it puzzles me how people can grow so far apart over such a short span of time. it sucks so much especially when it seems like theres nothing you can do about it but just let it happen. but in complete and total honesty if the things that happened didnt happen we may not be who we are today. and if you like who you are today who are you to regret all of that. i know i have done some things that im really not proud of. i know im not perfect. but honestly i dont think i would be who i am now. and i really am happy with who i am now. i dont know if im making any sense to anyone. haha im starting to feel like pehush and his ramblings. wow i miss that kid a lot. lol. but think about it, events in your life change who are. and if you really are happy with who you are, why regret the bad things. bad things shape a person too. not only the good things. its also really weird to think about how something so little can change a persons life drastically. like "what wouldve happened if i did this" or "what wouldve happened i didnt do that" once again im probably making no sense to anyone but myself but i honestly dont care. my minds just all over the place tonight. ok im gonna stop and try to go to sleep again.