and now deep thoughts
seriously, do you know how long it's been since i wrote anything of substance in here?
firstly, i'm feeling strange and vulnerable lately, but good. so many things have brought me to be who i am now, people mostly, and places. how many times have i said in this journal that i love boston? not enough, because it's still true. i just wish i had more time to enjoy it. strike that, i wish i had more energy to enjoy it.
you know what it is, this feeling, i think i've almost got a handle on it. i'm feeling ok with being impressionable again. i'm ready to let people affect me, and be a part of their life, and to let them leave their mark on me. i think i didn't have that for a while. but now i know, everyone who i'm close to, is leaving their mark. seriously, vera, even though i rarely talk to her, aaron, just being around someone as much as i tend to be around him starts to affect you, and angie, because she is so good, and jon, of course jon, in so many ways.
also i was thinking about other things, like what i like, in movies, books and in life. and i was thinking about it, and it's people, like, i really want to love poetry, because i love reading and i love words, but the only reason i love those things is that they have a lot to do with the inner workings of people. and poetry is too removed from what most people are like, they don't delve into the realm of psychology like a book can, because it's trying to capture an emotion, not what a person is. not what they're like. i think after my english degree i'm going to get a degree in psychology, because i think i love thinking about people enough for it to keep my attention.
ok, wow, such a ramble. it's now time to do something productive, i'm sure
firstly, i'm feeling strange and vulnerable lately, but good. so many things have brought me to be who i am now, people mostly, and places. how many times have i said in this journal that i love boston? not enough, because it's still true. i just wish i had more time to enjoy it. strike that, i wish i had more energy to enjoy it.
you know what it is, this feeling, i think i've almost got a handle on it. i'm feeling ok with being impressionable again. i'm ready to let people affect me, and be a part of their life, and to let them leave their mark on me. i think i didn't have that for a while. but now i know, everyone who i'm close to, is leaving their mark. seriously, vera, even though i rarely talk to her, aaron, just being around someone as much as i tend to be around him starts to affect you, and angie, because she is so good, and jon, of course jon, in so many ways.
also i was thinking about other things, like what i like, in movies, books and in life. and i was thinking about it, and it's people, like, i really want to love poetry, because i love reading and i love words, but the only reason i love those things is that they have a lot to do with the inner workings of people. and poetry is too removed from what most people are like, they don't delve into the realm of psychology like a book can, because it's trying to capture an emotion, not what a person is. not what they're like. i think after my english degree i'm going to get a degree in psychology, because i think i love thinking about people enough for it to keep my attention.
ok, wow, such a ramble. it's now time to do something productive, i'm sure