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yeah. a lot of crazy..out of control things going on.
i feel bad, when i cant help, cant find the right words to mkae things better. so ill just say it like ive said before. If there was any way in the world, i could feel my friends pain for them, i would do it in a heartbeat. i hate hearing about bad things happening to them. i hate it.
so today, i realized im changing . haha. good thing to notice. but yeah. ive always had things so figuired out. i knew what i was gunna do and how to get there. and now its just like..dont know what i want to do next. im begining to realize that this writing thing, journalism career.. its just not gonna happen. i feel so ungrateful writing this even, but when remm was like ok i want you to be the features editor....i.....didnt feel like i deserved it. or...something weird like that. and you know. i dont even know if i want to be a journalist? i dont know if i want to be an EMT. i just say it to scare the shit out of my family. because its a volunteer position in their eyes. They know how much my volunteer work means/meant to me..i dont know anymore.
ok so last night...alyssa gave her friend my sn....for some paper. good job. by the end of today id done like ten packets for her class. i can't say no.
i haven't talked to kyle in a little bit. maybe a few days or something. but i have been thinking about the breakup lol. if that counts for anything?.
I love how i get called a hypocrite for being friends with someone i've known since i was 8... yet their the retart that goes and does screwy ass things.
yeah. I hate girls.
ok. so i have a question now. i once asked mike, why he was stupid enough to tell me he cheated on me. lol
but the point to this one is, if you really love someone, wouldnt you just continue to let it tear you apart inside, instead lieu of causing tons of pain to someone else.
wow. i really gotta stop "talking out of my ass".
i feel bad, when i cant help, cant find the right words to mkae things better. so ill just say it like ive said before. If there was any way in the world, i could feel my friends pain for them, i would do it in a heartbeat. i hate hearing about bad things happening to them. i hate it.
so today, i realized im changing . haha. good thing to notice. but yeah. ive always had things so figuired out. i knew what i was gunna do and how to get there. and now its just like..dont know what i want to do next. im begining to realize that this writing thing, journalism career.. its just not gonna happen. i feel so ungrateful writing this even, but when remm was like ok i want you to be the features editor....i.....didnt feel like i deserved it. or...something weird like that. and you know. i dont even know if i want to be a journalist? i dont know if i want to be an EMT. i just say it to scare the shit out of my family. because its a volunteer position in their eyes. They know how much my volunteer work means/meant to me..i dont know anymore.
ok so last night...alyssa gave her friend my sn....for some paper. good job. by the end of today id done like ten packets for her class. i can't say no.
i haven't talked to kyle in a little bit. maybe a few days or something. but i have been thinking about the breakup lol. if that counts for anything?.
I love how i get called a hypocrite for being friends with someone i've known since i was 8... yet their the retart that goes and does screwy ass things.
yeah. I hate girls.
ok. so i have a question now. i once asked mike, why he was stupid enough to tell me he cheated on me. lol
but the point to this one is, if you really love someone, wouldnt you just continue to let it tear you apart inside, instead lieu of causing tons of pain to someone else.
wow. i really gotta stop "talking out of my ass".