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GOOD:
last nights show was real good. we played perfect and sold out of all our merch.
BAD:
everyday seems worse. i am horribly depressed. because im depressed i cant sleep. because i cant sleep i make myself sick. so i am always sad/tired/sick/stressed. all the time. i find myself filling up a whole sheet of notebook paper with curse words written all over it.
and a few select people dont make staying here any more pleasant. im going into that...
if i move. no one will know me. no one will care about me. no one will be up my ass with all the things they "heard" about me.
but id be leaving my good friends. my good bands. i mean, last night after we played, people actually asked me "what label are you guys signed to?" were we that good? people even asked to take pictures with us.
i dont really want to leave that. but just. bleh...
last nights show was real good. we played perfect and sold out of all our merch.
BAD:
everyday seems worse. i am horribly depressed. because im depressed i cant sleep. because i cant sleep i make myself sick. so i am always sad/tired/sick/stressed. all the time. i find myself filling up a whole sheet of notebook paper with curse words written all over it.
and a few select people dont make staying here any more pleasant. im going into that...
if i move. no one will know me. no one will care about me. no one will be up my ass with all the things they "heard" about me.
but id be leaving my good friends. my good bands. i mean, last night after we played, people actually asked me "what label are you guys signed to?" were we that good? people even asked to take pictures with us.
i dont really want to leave that. but just. bleh...