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I hate my life everythings going wrong
I love someone (which I just realized) and she probably doesnt even give a shit about me. well all i can do is more drugs and ill be better...I just want her to be happy. but she doesnt care I do all this shit to prove i wanrt to be with her and she doesnt care its like Im not goood enough. I know i need better I guesss but i just want her. whats the use in living? nothing, thats the answer. life sux then you die why not just skip to the dieing part? but that just proves Im weak and im not. what am I supposed to do? Drugs? And then once i come down I snap back to reality then what I have to go through shit again. I cant do anything right. Ill never be good enough and I hate it bc I havent felt this way since Ive been with kelcie, but I never had toi go through all this to be with her and I want to prove that i want to be with her but I just cant stand all this bullshit. Am I supposed to confess my love towards her then scare her off bc Im to clingy? everything i dont just screws everything up and i hate it. I just want to not be here I want a knew lif ebut I want to be happy! I HATE IT!
I love someone (which I just realized) and she probably doesnt even give a shit about me. well all i can do is more drugs and ill be better...I just want her to be happy. but she doesnt care I do all this shit to prove i wanrt to be with her and she doesnt care its like Im not goood enough. I know i need better I guesss but i just want her. whats the use in living? nothing, thats the answer. life sux then you die why not just skip to the dieing part? but that just proves Im weak and im not. what am I supposed to do? Drugs? And then once i come down I snap back to reality then what I have to go through shit again. I cant do anything right. Ill never be good enough and I hate it bc I havent felt this way since Ive been with kelcie, but I never had toi go through all this to be with her and I want to prove that i want to be with her but I just cant stand all this bullshit. Am I supposed to confess my love towards her then scare her off bc Im to clingy? everything i dont just screws everything up and i hate it. I just want to not be here I want a knew lif ebut I want to be happy! I HATE IT!