WTF?

[xspillmyheartx]

I love her so much but nothing seems to go anywhere. He doesnt deserve her. I wish i could see. But i cant. Love really does blind you. I try so much. What does she want me to do? She hates me and its not all my fault. But the fucked up part is she tries to make me feel that way. but I know better. Its not me. look at her actions and what she says to me. Calls me baby and hunnie and gets pissed off if she thinks shes not my rose. She is I know it...I cant be wrong but she doesnt want ot do anything to show me she is. She refuses to do anything to keep me. Shes a fallen angel. Shell wake up one day. SHE SAYS SHE LOVES ME STILL AND STILL WANTS TO MARRY ME.WTF? But she has a boyfriend after not even a month of us being broke up but then makes a pack with me to be on a break not doing anything with anyone else I go to go get my life straightened out and that day she says she promises not to do anything with anyone else but I could hear in her voice she was lying but I still told myself that shell be faithful bc i thought if I believed hard enough that she wouldnt do anything she WOULD be faithful. But look what i get for thinking! How the fuck could she do this to me. I fucking purposed to her! I cant handle it. DANA I HOPE YOUR HAPPY TO KNOW YOUR GOING DOWN IN HISTORY FOR BEING THE ONLY ONE TO BREK ME!!!!!! She isnt my rose you are!! Stop being like this. I know this is an episode of thinking I was too controlling. I know your just trying to show me that you can do what you want and you DONT need me. I see. But being with someone else isnt the answer. Thats out of spite and loneliness. I get the point you think I dont but being with him isnt the way to show me what you want to show me. Im sorry. It hurts to know your with him. I need you in my life! I knows theres so much more your trying to show me and I know what it is and you know I know everything. I just dont feel like writing it all out but please lets just talk this over. I promise not to get upset as long as you promise not to bring up shit to get you upset. Im tired of this. I remember us Dana but i dont think you remember us. Maybe this will strike a match.....

His tears fell into my eyes tonight.
We pressed our chests against eachothers, to feel eachother breathe. To feel eachother's hearts beat.
What good is one glove without the other?

No good.
I'm so in love with him right now.
And I'm so ready to do this.

Please dont throw us away. Dont comment some bullshit you'll regret saying later either please i wanna meet some sorta middle ground. I need you. Please I accept YOU FOR YOU!!! I LOVE YOU MORE THEN LIFE ITSELF!!! Please come back to me MY WIFEY, my rose, my me.