no one realli seems to care...
i feel like shit inside and it hurts so bad 2 c that everyone else is soo happie and im as miserable as it gets... no seriously... my parents treat me like im still 3 years old i dont get the respect i deserve they dont give me my space or any privacy, yall think i have it real easy maybe b/c i dont get punished like most people but i realli dont just b/c i dont get punished by my parents it seems like god is punishing me so that i cant be happie.. lets c the last time i was ever tha happiest in my life was when my sister was born ever since then and even before my life just sucked and it still does... but i kno none of u care so y do i even bother spillin it out, no one understands not even my parents n i dont think that they would understand i dont have the heart 2 go through this anymore i just wanna call it quits right now and end my life...i feel so
as if i am invisible... and now that scholl has arrived i dont kno if ill b able 2 handle all this pressure with havin 2 do good this year b.c last year i almost did it and it will be even worse this year. im always gettin put down by family and friends and it doesnt make me feel any better. i just wish that it would all go away so i can b happie! i want 2 be able 2 change my life around but frankly i realli dont kno how i can do thati wish i could just get away from my family for a couple of days or somethin...or even 2 tell them how i feel but everytime i try 2 do that it just starts up a big fight. theres talk about moving, i wish we could but it doesnt seem like that will even pull through... my dad likes this house but thats what he says all the time! cant u just settle on something for once! when i talk no one listens seriously my dad ignores me... and then hes like what did u say n im like fuck it u dont care about me so y should i bother wastin my breath on you! ..
i dont kno u all that well but what i do kno about u, u seem like u could b something special, but i kno that u probably wouldnt feel tha same...but i feel for u realli bad!
so heres me... ALONE......... I HAVE NO ONE!! BUT EVERYONE ELSE HAS SOMEONE...
my dream guy...*A girl asked a guy if she was pretty, he said no. She asked him if he wanted her, he said no. She asked him if she left would he cry, he said no. She turned to leave, he grabbed her arm and said..you're not pretty; you're beautiful. And I don't want you; I need you. And I wouldn't cry if you left; I would die*
AWW NOW thats the PRINCE CHARMING I want!!
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realli please dont feel sorrie for me i dont expect anyone 2!