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ahhh, how funny things tend to be.
the timing sucks. on numerous things. not just the one.
- the one thing that bothers me most
- the moving thing
- the softball thing
- the SAT thing
- the me not fucking getting my scholarship//award stuff in on time.
--will i still get it? i hope so. its ONLY 2 wks late. if i were them i'd be like, hmm real dependable you are. DECEPT! i will cry.
on a lighter note, Spill Canvas/ SLR concert was fun. especially getting in and having no ticket.
I love Thaimi Fina && Brett Micheal Schwartz.
yes i let out your identities which will now be stolen.
- Bed Ty- Me stories??
- Pablo, Pedro, Pancakes, Porkchops, and Pornography. Thats how you know it was a good day
back to the heavier note. hah.
i've never been more confused in my life.
this is a bit overwhelming.
andddddd who was told to do ALL of the history stuff except what was actually due? I was. Who was amazing and still got it done by 25? I did.
We play Plant tomorrow. I dont want to. I'm gonna beg the coach to bench me. Fuck being a starter. I don't careeee. I've been one since sophomore year, it's nothing special. Anyways, my ankle is bothering me again. Runnign on it wasnt too smart. Yes Caitlin, it's the one I jammed and was swollen. I never saw a doctor.
I wish I was naive again. Ignorance is bliss.
Growing up and seeing everything for how it truly is sucks. Being realistic sucks. Realistically, I doubt it will happen. Funniest part, I actually went out and said what i feel first. Ah, so that's why I never do that. Great reminder.
I want to move, yet I dont. I want to get out of here so bad. Away from fake. The fake people with their fake friendships, laughs and smiles. How nice starting over will be. I'll be with people I dont know me. They don't know my past. Or my "friends". They can't remind me of my screw ups in the past. Draw Back: They can't share the memories or see how much i really have changed.
So I was lying there, in bed, trying to sleep. Unsuccessful because I was lost in thought. Then I was interrupted. A somewhat pointless 2 hr conversation later,........
so now i'm stuck listening to acoustic songs about love triumphs and failures.There's one that sticks. checkkkk the music i'm listening to now. Can you tell why?
Edit:: I lost almost 10 lbs this week. Funny when you lose an appetite and start working alot. I'm happy. I feel good. 5 more lbs to go b4 i'm at my ideal weight! yay!
the timing sucks. on numerous things. not just the one.
- the one thing that bothers me most
- the moving thing
- the softball thing
- the SAT thing
- the me not fucking getting my scholarship//award stuff in on time.
--will i still get it? i hope so. its ONLY 2 wks late. if i were them i'd be like, hmm real dependable you are. DECEPT! i will cry.
on a lighter note, Spill Canvas/ SLR concert was fun. especially getting in and having no ticket.
I love Thaimi Fina && Brett Micheal Schwartz.
yes i let out your identities which will now be stolen.
- Bed Ty- Me stories??
- Pablo, Pedro, Pancakes, Porkchops, and Pornography. Thats how you know it was a good day
back to the heavier note. hah.
i've never been more confused in my life.
this is a bit overwhelming.
andddddd who was told to do ALL of the history stuff except what was actually due? I was. Who was amazing and still got it done by 25? I did.
We play Plant tomorrow. I dont want to. I'm gonna beg the coach to bench me. Fuck being a starter. I don't careeee. I've been one since sophomore year, it's nothing special. Anyways, my ankle is bothering me again. Runnign on it wasnt too smart. Yes Caitlin, it's the one I jammed and was swollen. I never saw a doctor.
I wish I was naive again. Ignorance is bliss.
Growing up and seeing everything for how it truly is sucks. Being realistic sucks. Realistically, I doubt it will happen. Funniest part, I actually went out and said what i feel first. Ah, so that's why I never do that. Great reminder.
I want to move, yet I dont. I want to get out of here so bad. Away from fake. The fake people with their fake friendships, laughs and smiles. How nice starting over will be. I'll be with people I dont know me. They don't know my past. Or my "friends". They can't remind me of my screw ups in the past. Draw Back: They can't share the memories or see how much i really have changed.
So I was lying there, in bed, trying to sleep. Unsuccessful because I was lost in thought. Then I was interrupted. A somewhat pointless 2 hr conversation later,........
so now i'm stuck listening to acoustic songs about love triumphs and failures.There's one that sticks. checkkkk the music i'm listening to now. Can you tell why?
Edit:: I lost almost 10 lbs this week. Funny when you lose an appetite and start working alot. I'm happy. I feel good. 5 more lbs to go b4 i'm at my ideal weight! yay!