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okay, just bc its new years eve i suppose i should update w/ a reflection of the year.
the beginning was, well, shitty.
people who i thought were my friends werent. someone was trying to ruin my chances at relationships with mutual friends and yeah.
it all came to pass though.and by that i mean, i despise my old "friends" and realized that theres no one at HHS worth it. :-/ man, do i sound like a bitch. oh well. truth hurts.
that led to me to end hanging out with much of the junior class, and start hanging out with the seniors. its so much better this way.theyre more fun, less clique-y, and just nicer people.
dont get me wrong, i still hang out with a few juniors in our class but only the ones who ARENT fake and are just truely amazing. I would like to recognize these people (dont they feel honored!): Caitlin!, Kraemer, Brandon, VIESH!!!!, NoL, Oli, Evan, Juan, Paco, Mari, Holly, Maddie, Neel, Jew, Wallach, Emelie...and thats all i can think of. (pretty much D's JA and a few other selected individuals)
love life has gone well this year though. dated a bunch, fell for a few, continued learning what im truely looking for. haha went out with kyle, jimmy, and now ross. kyle is....kyle. not much more to say. jimmy is still a good friend who's there when i need a shoulder to cry on, or a house to party at. hah. and ross. oh how i adore him. its had its ups and downs but as for now its getting better. he keeps me on my toes. :]
the best friend aspect. well, after ending the whole bus ride stuff, a few ties were severed bc of a few bitchy IB kids and a few middleton kids. however, we're still good friends despite them so FUCK ALL OF YOU! hah. they know who they are. it may have lost the bes friend aspect. im not sure anymore. bc things are hidden from me. but from them to. like the smoking. and sexual stuff. and. yea, im disappointed in you. just so you know.its gonna take quite a bit of work to regain my trust again.
then theres erica, charity, and mandie lee. oh i love these girls more then anyone!we're trouble buddies but i have the most fun with them then anyone. theyre the most true, genuine people ive ever met. ah good times. at the beach and bowling and bucs games and yeahhh...
family life. WOW its been rough. awol, cousin fighting in Iraq, severe cancer, serious strokes, disease and death. this was by far the hardest year to come by. i dont think so many parts of me have ever felt so empty. luckily we've all been able to come together and lean on each other. and we've had good times, dont get me wrong but this year the bad def. out weighed the good. but thats what you have to come through. thats the real challenge. the fact that although some of us are now missing, we came together, and wont forget them. theyre still mentioned and everything. we've had additions too. welcome to the family matt (what a wedding!), and Jenn, Zoey and Ian. funny how both siblings found love at the same time. talk about irony. also we kinda adopted Travis into our family as well since he doesnt have one anymore besides his brother who married my cousin. They survived a christmas with us! oh theyre def. in!.
yeah, that just about sums up my year.
new years resolutions:
physical:get fit. not so hard. ive had a head start. :]
emotional: get stronger. dont stay bottled up.
mental: learn. start to make something spectacular of urself.
now, lets go party.
the beginning was, well, shitty.
people who i thought were my friends werent. someone was trying to ruin my chances at relationships with mutual friends and yeah.
it all came to pass though.and by that i mean, i despise my old "friends" and realized that theres no one at HHS worth it. :-/ man, do i sound like a bitch. oh well. truth hurts.
that led to me to end hanging out with much of the junior class, and start hanging out with the seniors. its so much better this way.theyre more fun, less clique-y, and just nicer people.
dont get me wrong, i still hang out with a few juniors in our class but only the ones who ARENT fake and are just truely amazing. I would like to recognize these people (dont they feel honored!): Caitlin!, Kraemer, Brandon, VIESH!!!!, NoL, Oli, Evan, Juan, Paco, Mari, Holly, Maddie, Neel, Jew, Wallach, Emelie...and thats all i can think of. (pretty much D's JA and a few other selected individuals)
love life has gone well this year though. dated a bunch, fell for a few, continued learning what im truely looking for. haha went out with kyle, jimmy, and now ross. kyle is....kyle. not much more to say. jimmy is still a good friend who's there when i need a shoulder to cry on, or a house to party at. hah. and ross. oh how i adore him. its had its ups and downs but as for now its getting better. he keeps me on my toes. :]
the best friend aspect. well, after ending the whole bus ride stuff, a few ties were severed bc of a few bitchy IB kids and a few middleton kids. however, we're still good friends despite them so FUCK ALL OF YOU! hah. they know who they are. it may have lost the bes friend aspect. im not sure anymore. bc things are hidden from me. but from them to. like the smoking. and sexual stuff. and. yea, im disappointed in you. just so you know.its gonna take quite a bit of work to regain my trust again.
then theres erica, charity, and mandie lee. oh i love these girls more then anyone!we're trouble buddies but i have the most fun with them then anyone. theyre the most true, genuine people ive ever met. ah good times. at the beach and bowling and bucs games and yeahhh...
family life. WOW its been rough. awol, cousin fighting in Iraq, severe cancer, serious strokes, disease and death. this was by far the hardest year to come by. i dont think so many parts of me have ever felt so empty. luckily we've all been able to come together and lean on each other. and we've had good times, dont get me wrong but this year the bad def. out weighed the good. but thats what you have to come through. thats the real challenge. the fact that although some of us are now missing, we came together, and wont forget them. theyre still mentioned and everything. we've had additions too. welcome to the family matt (what a wedding!), and Jenn, Zoey and Ian. funny how both siblings found love at the same time. talk about irony. also we kinda adopted Travis into our family as well since he doesnt have one anymore besides his brother who married my cousin. They survived a christmas with us! oh theyre def. in!.
yeah, that just about sums up my year.
new years resolutions:
physical:get fit. not so hard. ive had a head start. :]
emotional: get stronger. dont stay bottled up.
mental: learn. start to make something spectacular of urself.
now, lets go party.