Dec 24, 2006 11:08
I cant ask to not have it hurt in the same manner that i have inflicted.
maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, is there any way around this? Surely, God does it for a reason.
I leave in less than a month, I dont even want to know the number of days. Time zooms. I never thought I would come to actually appreciate my home so much. you want what you cant have because you cant want what you already have, but you can have an experience like this and realize how much you really care about the things that emcompass your life.
I'm mixed up about it, there are times I'm really excited because I dont want to be idle, I want to trust God, and I want to believe that truth always remains, but then I also experience those doubts when I wonder "does anything really have a purpose? do things come and go and if you dont catch them, you lose them?"
I have faith. that's all i can do.
it hurts part II.
I just dont even know what to believe, although in the end it'll always be ok. We miss now because we fear the future without them. we mourn now for all the days ahead.